my covenant with you

2010-06-18T21:35:00.002+08:00

im here to blog! because someone ask me to

just came back for regeneration camp!
it was awesome
i love the PnW we had as a district.. really felt awesome
God really spoke to me.. I've learnt a lot
well.. this tells me more of truth telling..
LET'S ALL BUILD A STRONG COMMUNITY TOGETHER!
i was in the games comm! REALLY COOL COMMITTEE
i love the night games.. when i acted as the ghost..
SOOOO GLAD that many ppl got scared by me! HAHA
ghost of the year
at the same time.. mosquitoes kept biting me..
IRRITATING.
photos all in FB!

practically sat in front of the com the whole day.. LOL
but now im going off to STUDY!
fell sick though..
hope can get well soon!
sian
see ya all soon:)

loves

btw, thanks bestie! you rock! share with me your stuffs ok! dun hide it to yourself.. jiayou! must stay strong in God and nv give up. GOD SEES YOUR HEART AND HE WILL BLESS YOU YEAH! chickenlittle always here for you! love ya bestie!(:

during the whole camp i was praying for you. really hope you would get better and smile more often. really hope that you would be the cheerful one forever yeah! jiayou for your studies and nv give up. i really wanna help you thru in all things because it hurts to see you this way yeah. i miss talking to you and meet up soon. loveyou

2010-06-10T19:10:00.002+08:00

hey im blogging! (abit like once in a blue moon)

anyway.. this few days been going back school..
for lessons and stuffs
FINALLY NO MORE
can have more rest ba
awesome after all these things..
IM GONNA STUDY!
o level is really near

yesterday went sentosa with bestie and khairi ( joan was late)
didnt manage to get tanned.. :(
super sad.
but im gonna go there again to get tanned! COOL!
should start asking ppl..

msn-ed with alicia..
SHE DAMN FUNNY SIA
okok we bring books go northeast camp study
PROMISE must protect me hor!
i'll do the same to you yeah!
HAHA SANTA!

spent my morning practicing for talent time..
HOPE can get in man!
dance still a bit cmi sia!

anyway bestie, i love the HTHT with you!
IT WAS AWESOME.
thanks elf ears yeah
you are always there for me and always helping me..
really very touched by things you've done
come my hse more often ok!
we study study!
and apologies.. i know sometimes im pure irritating :(
go out together soon! WWW
LOVE YOU BESTIE!
YOU ARE AWESOME REALLY!

AWESOME lifegroup

2010-05-28T22:22:00.002+08:00

today, practically enjoyed the fellowship with my unit..
got to know more ppl and its totally a fun thing!
thanks st nics and phs peeps.
you've made this lg a great one!
LET's remember this : LEMON
HAHAH!

2moro ID2010 conference, looked forward :)
because ive been wanting to learn more abt discipleship..

Olevel chi coming..
studied for many weeks le..
BUT NTH SEEMS TO GO IN AT ALL!
sian.
kao God le
BLESS ME WITH WISDOM, i wanna shine for you!
gosh, this sucks man
wtb i guessed wont be using com 2moro and sun..
MUG CHINESE!
GO!GO!GO!
sian

yeah, gonna visit mdm loke on mon..
YES! hope she getting better la.
and maybe gonna stay over at bestie hse?
hope can man

anyway wanna leave some msg for some ppl,

wenzhen:

hey thank God for you for being so committed to Deyi.. without you, Deyi wont be where it is today. yeah though the group might be unstable now but trust me it will grow, more and more. you know why? cause God sees your heart and desire to want this group to grow. you showed it thru your actions! this is why im so touched by you. you gave your all for me even though i might ignore you at times. YET you still didnt give up. you really are someone i looked up too. DUN GIVE UP. Deyi really needs you to be there. remember you are the chosen one!
this is what i always tell you.. When the group is not doing well, it is the starting of a new growth. And when your group is at the peak, God will bring you down the hill to visit another mountain!

this is what i think God wanna tell you.

bestfriend:

hey! thanks for always being there for me! without you, there would be a empty hole in me. you really gave ur best for me. you have been tolerating with my nonsense, mood swings etc. thanks for doing all those! i really look forward to each time we get to see each other because every time we would have sooooo much fun and laughter together!belle, i dunno how life would be like without such a great friend like you. i want to always be there for you yeah! always remember, dun look down on urself. see that huge potential in u! trust me, you are more than what you think u are. thanks for everything. LIFETIME FRIEND!

chickenlittle:

thanks for being the energy in this race. you bring smile to me and you are awesome!

thats all..
bye peeps! see u after O's!
PRAY FOR DISTINCTION FOR ME!
im gonna defeat O's
give me discipline to do my revision!
WISDOM!

loves

2010-05-19T21:36:00.002+08:00

wa havent been using blog nor facebook

oh well got back results.
thank God i didnt do well, if not i'll be overtaken by complacency
let it be a wake up call for me..
NOT 'O' Level yet.
time to study liao

UDC, capt ball-ed
wah won third.. well better than nth..
quite sad cause thought with our fighting spirits can win
POSEIDON WON FIRST LEH! CHAMPIONS MAN!
oh man, old injury came back.
knee hurts

lunched with khairi and wanying
went back to school for rehearsal..
DAMN. its draining my energy.
settle some sc stuffs.
THANK GOD

Life is great when you have a best friend who tolerates you.
its great to have this kinda ppl with you..
THANKS AH

thanks chickenlittle, for cheering my day up man..

loves

2010-04-07T00:06:00.000+08:00

it hurts seeing you getting hurt.. SMILE!!!

2010-04-06T23:06:00.013+08:00

i realised i didnt post for april fool.. OH WELL
mrs gruber totally cute sia.. we 'locked' the door told her and she really believe..
OH FUNNY! the nineologists would know what exactly happened..
same day, i realised how important EQ is SERIOUSLY.
i started to grew hatred to ppl with high IQ but low EQ. ( OH GOD! make me love them)
THEY ARE PPL WHO SERIOUSLY ARE IRRITATING.
no offence oh well

funfunfriday was great. ENJOYED THERE! photos? FACEBOOK. saya lazy upload.
MY GROUP WON SECOND! GREAT!
stayed till 11 at ecp then headed home..

sun service.. USHERED. chaotic though..
all i could say to the word spoken was yes and amen..
COOL!

had e learning today.. was great..
WENT FOR LIFEGROUP!
i had this excitement..
chaired.. hope it was great.. but i personally think it was good..
played guitar for worship.. oh man i think i didnt do very well..
but at least i gave my best..
THANK GOD no big screw up..
met wenzhen after lifegroup..
had short teaching and she started 'supervising ' me..
oh damn she stared at me doing my work. LIKE A LION GONNA EAT A SHEEP LIKE THAT
wa i seriously damn sian liao she still kept pushing me.. PERHAPS WHEN O LEVEL IS NEARING.. THIS IS WHAT I GONNA EXPERIENCE.
this is crazy
ELINE TAN LI TONG DID HER WORK!
i complete some of it.. surprisingly?

been feeling like lots of things to accomplish. hw, proj,proposal and stuffs.. I REALLY WISH TO RUN AWAY FROM THESE THINGS. damn this really sucks. i dunno if i should let you know abt this.. but i think i'll keep it for the moment.. dun wish for another of it happen again..i do wonder if i regretted on the choice... but well what's made have been made.. hate this feeling. i always look at you.. then realised how much i was disappointed.. because i cant go thru what you had :( i really need someone presence.. someone who im really comfortable with everything.. I CAN BE MYSELF BEFORE YOU. i can tell you everything.. BUT difficult.. i felt the feeling of emptiness, loneliness and even lost.. OH A PIECE OF SHIT CAN! i'm really running abt not knowing where im running to. how i wish to cry everything out..

oh jerk, you destroyed my happiness once and now again. WHEN ARE YOU GONNA DISAPPEAR FROM MY LIFE! i can forgive but nv forget. hypocrite! get lost! i believe God will punish you for what you have done. you really suck seriously. no rights to insults! GET OUT!

even if you don't want, i'll protect you from everything. i'll give you what you need' i'll be there for you. i'll put genuine smiles on your face. i'll help you thru your troubles. i'll pull you up in your down-est time. i'll hold your hand to give you warmth. i'll go thru everything with you. i'll give you my best. i'll wait here for you. i'll love you with all my heart and strength. because you are the special one.

loves

2010-03-27T21:26:00.001+08:00

IDIOT + DUMB + MORON = ELINE

2010-03-27T01:43:00.002+08:00

been choing hw and stuffs. drained out physically.
the other day just wanted to take a 5 min break end up 5 hours :P
i was trying to listen to waimei like what she say rest for 5 min..
oh man my weekends would be hectic! gonna finish up all the work i owe.
OH GOD!
but thank God , i've gained the motivation to study. this time i felt the heat and i really need to do sth and i will do.
i hope it still not too late man.

i have to say..
dunno what's wrong with myself recently.
realised that been procrastinating with things or tasks given to me.
like.. hmm shall not say too embarrassing! but ppl sitting around me will know what it is
also realised.. i've beeen doing things without letting others know that i do it or the purpose
oh man. oh damn it. im like that

well. there is another thing in my head.. dunno what ive done is right.. though feel childish but i feel i rather be childish than to hurt someone you really love. my intentions might not be seen or reasons might not known.. but i know one thing.. i still cared for this person. i dun wish that she would be put in a difficult spot neither do i want her to get irritated by me. though she might not care abt this anymore, but i still do because i keep in mind " a lifetime friend". because i made the prayer, and i will do it. i wished to talk to her, but i dare not do it. i have no courage. i dun want her to know the truth but one day i will tell her because we must be truthful. i love this friend . i will want to be her friend. friends for life

oh my. i wish to go out on sun because its booked.

2010-03-17T00:04:00.002+08:00

wah. very long nv blog le. okay not really.
recently been out with peeps till late. hmm..

cutting hair 2moro.. ohmy wonder how it will be..
also wanna take the opportunity to change specs LOL
lifegroup 2moro too. rather nervous..
im gonna lead worship..
but God will help me man!

oh man. my studies sucks.. SERIOUSLY
i bet cant find any lousier one in myclass.
THATS HOW BAD
but i will still keep the flame in my heart burning .
I GONNA DO WELL MAN! i'll show by actions.

last fri was talking to Eunice!
wah really miss her so much.
ENJOYED TALKING TO HER! SHE ROCKS!
she's been encouraging me and yeah
eunice i'll do well for u to see!
i'll prove you wrong abt that thingy!
i love her man! AWESOME SISTER!

anyway.. hols gonna be the last few times i can enjoy..
hmm i gonna be more focused on task on my hands now. OH WELL

whenever i passed by, i'll take a peep at you.

and now i just cant stop looking at you.

i just hope that u know what im feeling

But still i dun wanna let you caught me again.

you made me just cant thinking abt you.

and im starting to fall for you.

your charm just overtook my heart

2010-02-28T20:06:00.003+08:00

oh well keep it short and simple. having 4 tests 2moro.. ONE AFTER THE OTHER! siao liao! i dun understand what im studying.. GG! nvm i trust that God will help me thru! hallelujah! anyway.. yesterday's service was great.. FINALLY SERVED!!! i miss ushering so much la! i really enjoyed the whole program yesterday.. sermon was great..

God really spoke to me yesterday.. yeah. HURT PEOPLE HURT PEOPLE. its so true! and the people that hurts you deeply are always the people you loved the most! COMEON, how true can it be!

GOD! there are so much circumstances around me making me feeling like giving up in life. but lord you made me trust! lord ive done what im supposed to and i believed you will help me thru. BLESS ME WITH WISDOM OH LORD! i need it man. i pray that all the test 2moro will be easy! lord i commit my life to you, speak to me and help me thru oh lord! in jesus name, amen

may i have a second chance?

2010-02-21T19:57:00.002+08:00

i miss you a lot! i cant stop thinking of you day and night. you are really locked inside my heart and i cant find the key. the image of you flashes in my mind so often that i always stare into it. moments that we spent together had always been in my heart. i just cant forget abt you i just cant stop loving you. even if i wanna delete you you my life, i just cant do it. you have electrocuted my life. i love you forever and forever is NOT over!

i miss you. i love you.

2010-02-21T18:39:00.002+08:00

well, it had been quite some time since i last updated my blog..
reason..
i didnt touch my com at all..

well glad that Chinese new year came at the right time..
at least i could have fun for days..

well yesterday bestfriend came over for service!
im very very happy!
really hope she enjoyed.

well then went for shep meet.. i really find it great and awesome..
i think God spoke to me a lot..

Psalm 15
A psalm of David.
1 LORD, who may dwell in your sanctuary?
Who may live on your holy hill?

2 He whose walk is blameless
and who does what is righteous,
who speaks the truth from his heart

3 and has no slander on his tongue,
who does his neighbor no wrong
and casts no slur on his fellowman,

4 who despises a vile man
but honors those who fear the LORD,
who keeps his oath
even when it hurts,

5 who lends his money without usury
and does not accept a bribe against the innocent.
He who does these things
will never be shaken.

imagine this.. im nv shaken..
that would be awesome..
but well sinners cant do that at one go..
so i shall do it one at a time..

i will shoo away the dogs!!!!

well i thank God for today.
i been feeling emotional..
but i know that i cant let my emotions lead me..
I WILL HAVE TO LEAD THEM!
so i tried a new way to let my emotions out!
i didnt sing.. but i danced!!
imagine dancing your heart out..
the only audiences is you and perhaps God..
what i did was fantastically great!
i nv had such great experience before.

oh God, i pray that you will continue to blessed me with the strength to go thru all the sucky things. i thank you for refreshing my life. it feels so great when i know that things are getting better. Lord, i also pray for the people around me. for this particular person in my heart, lord, blessed her with the strength and knowledge to be able to go thru this huge year for her. may your presence fill her and bless her with wisdom during this year. lord also help her to make decisions based on you. God! whenever she feel sad or emotional, may your joy fill her to put the smile on her face. lord, she is someone i treasure a lot and help me to bless her life and to be there for her just like you always do. may you give her the discipline to read your word and to stay focused in her life. God, also bless this friendship as we continue to move on in a new journey for you lord. despite anything happened, help us to stay strong and continue to trust each other lord. lord i also pray for myself that i would give my best to commit to everything. SPIRIT OF EXCELLENCE. may i have the obedience to listen to your word and to be a salt and light. may i have the discipline to study and shine for you lord. I WANT TO SHINE FOR YOU. i wanna bring more ppl to know you! i commit all these areas into your hands. help to to be less like myself but more of you. help me thru all circumstances and bless me with joy! i wanna be happy for you! may your strength continue to be the one i rely one. i love you GOD! i commit my life into your hands. in your most precious and mighty name i pray, AMEN!

2010-02-06T21:22:00.002+08:00

well just had some thoughts in mind..
there really lots of things that flashed thru my mind

God really gave me a wonderful life

He gave me a wonderful life that made me learn so much..
a wonderful family that i grew up with
a wonderful school that i go thru important phrase of my life.
a wonderful church that i realised i grew so much.
a wonderful group that i learnt my mistakes from.
most importantly, two wonderful friends in my life that made my life wonderful

they are my bestfriend and shepherd..

these two person can tolerate my childishness
can advice me
go thru thick and thin with me...
help me thru circumstances..
and most importantly my walk with God..
THEY ARE AWESOMELY WONDERFUL

i'll live life to the fullest

God is good..
AMEN

thought of this thing that gideon talk to me abt before..
DECISION MAKING
really
i didnt know i could apply it only a few months and sub consciously doing it..
this man had live this inside my heart..
i'll nvr forget and i'll nvr make those kind of wrong decision again..

during ctm today..
learnt a lot from zach..
he is a man that God really blessed him with his words..
i could see so much wisdom in whatever he says..
set the right heart attitude..
yeah.. he said so much that a post isnt enough..

there's a lot of restructure happening..
a lot are shocking though..
well i'll still give my best cause God will do the rest..

had some verses i really wanna share

“He who pursues righteousness and love finds life, prosperity and honor.”- Proverbs 21:21

“For the LORD is good and his love endures forever; his faithfulness continues through all generations” - Psalm 100: 5

“9Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. 10Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers.” - Galatians 6: 9- 10

“5 The righteous hate what is false,
but the wicked bring shame and disgrace.
6 Righteousness guards the man of integrity,
but wickedness overthrows the sinner. ” -Proverbs 13 : 5-6

“22let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. 23Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful. 24And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds.” - Hebrews 10: 22-24

these verse are verses that i all sudden came across
woah..
but the Galatians one i have been sharing la..
its like one of my favourite verses..

well God gave me a second chance to my wrongdoing and i shall turn against it..
this is the life i live to fullest..
myself not everything is possible..
but with God nothing is impossible.

God you are the final solution.

2010-02-06T20:48:00.002+08:00

oh the week just ended..
man cool i love weekends..
WOOHOO!

well thurs was farewell lg.
cool.. i bet i left sth for them hur..
HAHA!
fri had tests..
chem i totally flung it..
i was playin after writing some crap on the paper..
totally will get zero la!
but was happy that physics test did well..
really glad..
after school went met liehao and ppl...
got to know the deyi ct more..
headed to sr for sports day..
but it was raining!
but in the end still had pm..
awesome..
me and joann were the only girls there

well today service was awesome..
haha. really glad that i didnt miss it like because of school etc..
haha
had ctm after that..

2010-01-31T14:54:00.002+08:00

wa yesterday flag day..
but i enjoy though. i learnt really lots of things..
aunties are more generous than those ppl out there who works..
i saw pearlyn and melissa.. haha
HIHS AND DEYI DO FLAG DAY AT AMK!
they snatch our business sia
haha
but at least my tin was filled with sth..
really tired after that

went service after that
was like really wowed by qianjing

after service supposedly have to settle some stuffs..
but its done when im done..
WT?!!!
since i at sr le so go don's hse to meet the seven
"STUDIED"

bestfriend told me this..
" absence makes the heart grow founder"
got to take some time to now what it really meant
thanks girl.. you helped a lot..

i want you to know that it doesn't matter

im really happy

Your presence is more than enough for me to be happy.

dun worry, will be there for you. :)

things will get better.

2010-01-24T20:54:00.002+08:00

i'll leave what's past to the past
because i seriously wanna forget abt this..

man the week has been a roller coaster ride for me..
there are times when i was sad
and happy
and excited
and angry
and even felt like crying

today i spent half of the day sleeping,
one quarter practising guitar
one eighth one com
the other eighth.. think abt many ppl and stuffs..
just watched a video with sis
its funny.. cause there's this guy who went crazy tat cs dun start
very vulgar.. scream like no one's business
laughed like a monster
the video " cs maniac(really funny) it must be seen "
joke of the day..
i play cs also not so crazy..
well better to avoid it though.

man 2moro is north zone against yts..
really need God to be there to win this game
difficult but i believe God will help us
girls i hope we had learnt our mistakes..
LET'S JIAYOU TOGETHER B DIV!
we are rockers on court!
anyway this means that i will miss time with waimei during recess and lessons after that :x

its gonna be a new week..
THINGS WILL GET BETTER
i really believe that
cause everything seems to be on the right track now..
i'll give my best in everything
be it family, God, church, lifegroup, friends, studies, cca, council
God will help me thru..
i know i have a lot of commitment to juggle well..
but i will really wanna give my best.
be a salt and light in class
i rmbed once i said
" i will have a lifegroup in my own class"
seems impossible? but i'll do my best
6 more peeps to go

sis is right..

but i'll make things better, sis

oh no my mum bring takoyaki back again..

i nv had such a strong feeling that i nv wanted to lose sth/sb other than my family
this is really my first time
hey friend:
no matter what happens..
no matter how you feel abt me.
I'LL ALWAYS BE YOUR FRIEND.
even if you turn ur back against me..
i'll still choose to be ur friend
lets put what past aside.
the strongest friendship is not how close two person is..
but is how strong we go thru everything together
you mean more than he does..
and im serious.
i can give up everything i have.. but not you, my friend.

i wanna drink milo

it makes me better:)

6 more months

2010-01-20T21:16:00.002+08:00

well, the week started off with N Zone..
learned a lot of important values in that game..
lets make this a lesson for us girls..

i love wai mei and christina!
they saved me in my amath qt

last time,
i thought that i would nv be a weakling.
i told myself to be strong against everything
i would not be unable to control my emotions.

but now recently..
it seems that ive become weaker against some stuffs
ive became more feminise
and i cry, feel sad and insecure easily and i simply been led by emotions?

its a lot of change.. perhaps im more feminine now(like what khairi said)..
women feel insecure and are easily led by emotions..
i agree..
im like that now

a little bit of this.. a little of that makes me feel..
insecure..
like everyone talking bad abt you(some are true though)
im like more sensitive..
perhaps its things that had happened..
i dunno who i can really trust and talk to..
it feels so..
out and empty

and i cry easily over small things..
even cried over this word " INSECURITY"
i feel very want to let it out
dunno who to look for thats why i tend to talk to myself..
i get distracted and daydream too..
think of those problems..
really sucks..

what happened to me? where 's the old chickenlittle i ever know..

1. i really need some new place i can stay alone and sort my mind out
2. i need someone i can talk to
3. i need time to distress.
4. i need time to play and study
5. i need peace in heart and mind
6. i need to know what have been missing

well i know that life still goes on
BUT I REALLY HATE BEING ALONE

stop treating me so nicely..

i will fall for you even more

but i know i cant.

hate to see you sad too

2010-01-12T22:23:00.002+08:00

oh man didnt really get the chance to post much
but i wont post that often liao i guess..
more time should be spent on studies..
once a while?
i mean i regretted telling them:"O LEVEL nth de! study so early!"
now i feel the heat.

the year didnt start of well for me.. but i'll end it nice
shall not elaborate

what is this thing called o level.
ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE WITH THE LORD
really wanna take this chance to congratulate many ppl la..
ESP WENZHEN!
see you did well. go die la you!!!
but for others dun worry. chickenlittle is here for you!
man i felt stressful cause i was expecting myself..
DIE GG

anyway yesterday took 88 with bestfriend!
haha i was disturbing her instead of she doing it..
LOSER!!!
on bus we chat..
man she's great la.
we talked everything and she was nice to listen to my stories..
but is so great not telling her got what bus at my hse
HAHA TRICKED HER THROUGHOUT!
she's trying to play with me!
HAHA. i was telling her abt black and white and stuffs
she get what i meant
the other day was with bestie and khairi and co
me and bestfriend really got telepathy sia! not bad not bad
i do simple actions she get what i mean
then today some ppl challenged me to tell her some stupid stuffs..
LOL. not possible la
we not twins.
TELEPATHY NOT STRONG YET
but we have common thoughts though
I LOVE MY AWESOME BESTFRIEND MAN!
we really went thru a lot

i wanna be by your side to give you the support you need..

2010-01-04T20:51:00.002+08:00

first of all HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOONTONG!
awesome friend. thaks for yesterday

school started today.
wow. awesome though
sec 1s are pretty quiet..
forgot its just the first day..
but really enjoy time with them though its hard to get them moving at times
nearly lose my voice on teaching i taught them
HAHA
was super thirsty la
but im gonna do my best.. last one le

i knew its was wrong to flare up during sharing session
but i was rather..
angry
i think i know what i can share next time..
like prepare a book.. so that next batch wont follow footstep
awesome

officially 409, o level student..
man felt the stress

yeah anyway..
felt been fooled rather..
like totally got affected by...
i mean i dun trust anymore
i felt so disappointed..
FOOLED AGAIN

2009-12-27T17:29:00.002+08:00

woah. blog again..
it was christmas two days ago and it will be new year 5 days later
OH SHIT ( SOME PPL KNOW WHY)

christmas service and party was great.
haha i love the part when we..
EAT! no lah.. i love the part when we went for caroling..
haha though quite tired..
but enjoyed though
watched guowei and ppl dance..
woah i wonder why they didnt get in..

alrights..
spent my christmas sleeping..
for some reason i felt really tired

this two days spent it at home..
anyway..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEISI!
she so lame uh..

yeah 2moro having match
look so freaking forward to it!!

new year resolution..
quite the habit of saying.. " I'll do it 2moro"

alrights..
thats should be it

when can i soften your heart?

2009-12-18T22:08:00.002+08:00

holidays are coming to an end soon..
i spent 90% busy doing sth, 5% on hw, 5% have yet to come.
man time flies.

alrights first thing first..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEAN!
hope you had a great time playing flour..
haha and and monopoly deal.. LOL!

alrights just some stuffs..
went class outing the other day..
im still the same.. not any tanner.
haha but i enjoyed the trip and going to arcade after that..
we had fun throwing things..

14-16 was LEVEL UP camp..
im really refreshed and determined to do stuffs..
not BEING NATO(no action talk only)
God reminded me of many stuffs..
gained my confidence and faith..
most importantly.. many ppl reminded me of many things too..
thank God for gideon and ppl.
put aside all worries and leave them to God..
EMOTION IS A GOOD SERVANT BUT A BAD MASTER.
anyway photos? there's this thing called Facebook now.

i really hate this thing call truth..
its been playing around with me..
when i want it.. it dun come..
when i dun want it.. it come.
truth can make you happy but also disappointed..
but im more of disappointed now..

my shepherd and my heart tells me to correct..
but my thinking say no.
in consideration that the other party's heart has already decided..
if not when the thingy happens, i'll be able to change it..
it happened so long le..
well forget it..
the heart has decided le

why must human do the wrong things..
or right things at wrong time..
cant we be more patience and let time pass..
priority..
WHERE HAS IT GO?

you totally disappoint me with the decision.

2009-12-08T22:08:00.002+08:00

i cant believed that in the end i still..
oh well.. its better to let out than keeping it to myself..
felt great after smsing meow meow in the morning..
at least after pearlyn msg i forgotten abt it for a while

then was lying on the bed and my mama came in and talk to me..
haha then we started saying lame jokes..
MY GOSH MY MUM SO OLD LE STILL CHILDISH.
no wonder im like that.
i was saying i want a bag
she keep saying i wanna bet.
i mention the word bag she will replied bet..
LAME LUH!
but i love my mama..
though at time i felt she dun understand me or she's unreasonable..
at least she still love me a lot..
try to be the santa claus in my life..
I LOVE MY MAMA!!

i woke up at 1230.. woke up had my lunch..
fantastic i love the food..
then did some chores.
practically spent my day facing a screen
i then realised..
TODAY IS FINALLY MY FIRST DAY OF HOLIDAY.
so kelian!!! ive been busy with lots of stuffs..
then i started thinking abt that particular thingy
so i switched on com..
i was talking to shaun just now..
he was like talking to me cheering me up..
JUST LIKE WHEN HE WAS IN YLC.
then i started saying lame jokes to help him distress..
haha
was talking to bestfriend too.
but my tone was rude..
sorry:(
man felt so bad..
but im feeling damn bad too..

well.. off doing qt soon..
hope wont cry again..
i hate it.

CLC1 has ended

2009-12-07T23:42:00.002+08:00

yeap clc1 has ended..
love the whole course..
learned a lot from other district ppl..
ITS ALL SO DIFFERENT.
make friends most importantly...

usher ws today..
what i felt was quite fun though..
again.. make friends yeah..
talk to mj and ppl..
knew and learn a lot from them too..

i just wanna say that..
my time and freedom has been taken away by you..
though time dun exist since council stuffs come
and freedom dun exist since i was 15..
nvm..
but you took away my only source of joy and my rights..
WHAT ELSE AM I LEFT WITH?
nothing frankly..
i hope u know how important this is to me..
what i am doing today is what you have been trying to tell me..
IM SORRY THIS IS WHAT I LEARN FROM YOU.
you took away my everything..
i will and i mean i WILL go against..
UNTIL the most fair decision is made
im a joyless soul with nth left..
except God's encouragement..
trying to put on a smile

thank God that i didnt cry infront of someone just now..
but i feel like crying

you are the reason for the teardrop on my guitar.

2009-12-02T23:35:00.002+08:00

yeah. changed blogskin.. ADDED MUSICS most importantly..
dun sound so dead though half of the time my blog is dead

haha went for CLC1 today..
today enjoyed it..
most importantly i was reminded of sth..
yeah THANK GOD
i totally enjoyed the poison bottle game..
LEARNT A LOT

2moro going to school for another council meet
great opportunity to prove myself wrong
gonna settle orientation stuffs..
now left my part.. stressed :X
after that going deena hse for sec 3 bonding bbq..
YEAH! LOOK FORWARD (:

prompted of two verses..

Matthew 5:43-48 (The Message)
43-47"You're familiar with the old written law, 'Love your friend,' and its unwritten companion, 'Hate your enemy.' I'm challenging that. I'm telling you to love your enemies. Let them bring out the best in you, not the worst. When someone gives you a hard time, respond with the energies of prayer, for then you are working out of your true selves, your God-created selves. This is what God does. He gives his best—the sun to warm and the rain to nourish—to everyone, regardless: the good and bad, the nice and nasty. If all you do is love the lovable, do you expect a bonus? Anybody can do that. If you simply say hello to those who greet you, do you expect a medal? Any run-of-the-mill sinner does that.
48"In a word, what I'm saying is, Grow up. You're kingdom subjects. Now live like it. Live out your God-created identity. Live generously and graciously toward others, the way God lives toward you."

John 10:11-18 (New International Version)
11"I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep. 12The hired hand is not the shepherd who owns the sheep. So when he sees the wolf coming, he abandons the sheep and runs away. Then the wolf attacks the flock and scatters it. 13The man runs away because he is a hired hand and cares nothing for the sheep.
14"I am the good shepherd; I know my sheep and my sheep know me— 15just as the Father knows me and I know the Father—and I lay down my life for the sheep. 16I have other sheep that are not of this sheep pen. I must bring them also. They too will listen to my voice, and there shall be one flock and one shepherd. 17The reason my Father loves me is that I lay down my life—only to take it up again. 18No one takes it from me, but I lay it down of my own accord. I have authority to lay it down and authority to take it up again. This command I received from my Father."

amen. GOD IS awesome! hallelujah

2009-11-30T13:56:00.002+08:00

woah. really excited for CLC1 later
really look forward in learning new stuffs:)

yesterday is the past.
2moro is the future.
today is the present.

i should treat everyday that im living as a gift.
humans tend to bring yesterday to today.
and today to 2moro.
we live life without JOY
sad to say im those that always do that
i let my past happenings affect what i am doing to do.
like i told myself..
since it is a rotten apple, it shall be a rotten apple.
but i didnt know whats better for the rotten apple.
i knew it could do sth else.

my feelings on issues are affecting what im thinking now.
but one thing i knew..
i have an issue
LOL

i want to get rid of my mess now.
in no mood in doing anything on it.
INCLUSIVE OF HOMEWORK
out to change this?
i need somewhere to keep the mess

feel like getting a ipod
put music in and blast them..
listen to songs make me feel better sometimes..

best medication for headache and frustration
bang your head on the wall
and i'll stay forever unconscious of them.
running away from reality

2009-11-23T22:20:00.003+08:00

hey guys here to really post more on OBS.
i really had much fun there with those guys..
im in DAGAMA haha.
thank God with Minling and michelle.
first two days is like really.. BORING! haha
i meant.. we felt..
haha but enjoyed it as learning days..
third day was kayaking..
with michelle and sean..
as you know.. once again.. light.....
opps i dint say anything
went back to school on forth day for COE..
DANG
fifth day was the sort it out day..
all our unhappiness was left in pulau ubin
really.
heard that there will be a 2 bravo outing.
hope to be able to join you..
:D

alrights. done for that,
eh.. time was rather like passing by..
i didnt knew what i had really done for the past few weeks.
dang nv study for a few weeks le.
SHIT i gonna be a nerd

its been a while since i really had the time to sit down..
die.. i feel that i need God to shift me back to the right direction..
felt so lost.
300plus more days to o level.
trust me it will come and past soon.
DANG!
PLACE GOD IN FIRST PRIORITY
WORRY FOR WHAT?
but i cant stop it.

oh well. i really need some time to sit down and relax!
anyway SORRY BELLE. I MISS iT. hope ya understand.
man. i miss so many dumb ppl..
the chicken.. WAIMEI.
the pig.. BELLE
the laughing bag.. CHRISTINA
the smile-ful girl.. MINLING
the other chicken.. MINJI
the bangla.. ETHEL
the rabbit.. REGINA
the yoshi owner.. JOONTONG

if your name doesnt appear up there..
its either i forgot
or i just simply saw you or sees you every single week
oh boy these ppl played a part in my life some sort or the other..
left sth inspiring in me.
put sth memorable in my mind that i cant forgot
there is even random names..

2moro got class chalet..
but joining them on 2nd day..
haha really look forward to it..
though my whole group of friends didnt go..
i pray they will at least go for a while?
please! just join..
i feel so sad
i wanna go cause i wanna see those friends that hasnt been meeting..
wanna know and catch up with them
oh boy..

byee off i go do qt..
leaving the photos below..

she tried taking photo with me.

catch up soon girl!

2009-11-17T22:05:00.002+08:00

yeah been back from OBS for quite a few days..
but everyday were bust
TODAY COE.
nice i always like the m&d performance

2moro alumni camp..
look forward to it because we are gonna be exposed to new things..
EH dun get the wrong msg..
i meant sth else!!!

post photos and experience in OBS sometimes..

LASTLY..

I LOVE MY BESTFRIEND!!!!! :)

2009-10-31T23:23:00.002+08:00

i didnt knew that it would happen to me.
so shocking that my emotions were affected
even my spiritual life
i even showed the weak side of me..
DANG
i hate that feeling
troubled by everything
it has somewhat became a numb feeling

but thank God
ppl around has been motivating me to do well.
no matter how cui my life is now
but i still choose to praise and worship Jesus
i knew he would have the solution to all my probs
God is more than enough for me now.

O LORD, i pray to you to bring down all these
i trust in you!!
i trust in you!!
i really hate them.
i hate all these that had happened to me
but i will still trust in you
i will love you to the end of my life

when the things around me or my whole life come crashing down.
the only person i could trust is God

2009-10-18T20:28:00.003+08:00

here i am to update!! i bet no one has the perseverance to finished reading this.

the past week of preparation for EOY is over.
i started the preparation a month ago.. but it seems that i dunno anything still
EOY was a total flung!
come on.. i pass jiu happy liao.. dun bother abt distinction anymore

this exam period was really a test of faith.
i could have given up many things but i didnt.
i believe God will still continue to bless me..

in this exam period too.. many things had happened..
really. they were overwhelming.
to a certain point, i nearly give up.
be it for related to exams problems or not.. all came.
i couldnt handle most well

now its after exams.. thought all problems would be gone..
but i was too naive.. more came.
but one thing i cant understand is..
why must human lie?
just because they dun want others to know the truth..
i admit. i do lie.. humans are imperfect.
but at least i wont lie abt sth serious..
i would want the truth instead
sometimes i thought.. after you lied..
forget abt telling the truth.
SINCE YOU HAVE ALREADY HURT SOMEONE OR FAKED ABT STH.
FORGET ABT IT
if you choose to not tell the truth in the first place.. then dun tell at all.

i only just know.. i dun have sooooooooo much love to forgive and forgive and forgive again and again.
this is why im a human.
i tried to forgive over again.. but this time round i couldnt.
OH LORD! Help Me!
ive been tied down by humongous problems..
but none seems to go away..

sometimes i do wonder.. am i the one causing troubles?
i think so.

ppl speak untrue stuffs on me..
FOR WHAT?
come on got courage say in front of me..

i mean this world is full of imperfect ppl..
but i must continue to love them..
im trying man!

i went back reading Corinthians for qt again..
cause i think i really have to built up in the area called
LOVE
thank God.. He is constantly talking to me!

grads ceremony was last fri
sad sec 4s graduate le
miss you guys lots ya!

anyway enough of talking abt these
HAPPY STUFFS!
i bought a guitar!!!
on my way to become cg guitarist!
oh man so excited..
but i got blisters on my fingers.. OUCH
but i believe.. hard work pays..
my guitar is married to huixuan's one!!!

Thank God for Chris
for pei-ing me go buy guitar
teaching me many things

thank God for Jasmine
thank you for encouraging me..
THAT CARD WAS SO SWEET! :D

thank God for Wenzhen
she is still doing her best..
FOR EVERYTHING
giving her bests to her sheeps
loving everyone as still

thank God for Emily
she is still giving her very best to NEA2
and encouraging me when im down!
helping me too

lastly thank God for Belle
helping me throughout my exams seasons and getting ppl to join church!
bringing joy and happiness to my life!
making me not so stress

Lord, i thank you for these people and what you have done in my life
i will continue be faithful to You.

Enjoy And Desire God's Blessings Everyday

2009-10-10T22:13:00.002+08:00

woah fantastic.. im here today blogging.
rare chances..
haha lol

just wanna blog.. have the sudden urge to do it but..
I SHOULDNT BE DOING THIS!
i have to endure 6 more days till the end of exams..
just had both language paper 1.. was rather fine..
math MY GOSH! im so scared now.. its easy.. but all of a sudden i forgot how to do..
What the....
SS was a complete flung for SBQ.. wa die.. history have to do well.
come on amath paper on mon.. i dun wanna flung it like last time anymore..
THE FEELING REALLY SUX.

oh well cant wait for exams to end off immediately.
UNDER TREMENDOUS STRESS till i went literally crazy
CAMPS AND CAMPS AND CAMPS COMING UP!!!
really look forward to them esp church cap and OBS!!!
lol really excited..

going guitar shopping after exams with Chris?
hope he wont forget!
cause now im so excited for it..
really hope i can play it!
OH MAN!

anyway today service was great..
sermon was short but meaningful..
the whole of Nehemiah series really struck me a lot..
i really wanna post all my feelings out but...
LAZY
i played with jasmine and somehow got a cut..
i dunno how but.. after i realised it..
it is really a mini cut though..
went home with huixuan and we talked alot
really glad that she has indirectly inspired me a lot..
she pushes me to the next level.. THANKS MAN
4 by the end of this year!!!!

was revising amath.. but sidetracked..
damn i wanna concentrate all 2moro..

really inspired by the quote i saw on the advertisement..
"Tough times don't last but tough people do."
i think God want to tell me to continue persevere on..
despite the fact that thousands of problems are coming..
but God knows i can overcome them..

THANK GOD FOR EVERYTHING!
hallelujah PRAISE THE LORD!

2009-09-28T22:53:00.004+08:00

oh well. today as usual mondays.. im like freaking cant wake up.
was 5min late for reporting.
but thank God the last one.

well lessons were great?
i totally slacked for the whole of today..
didnt even lsten in any lesson..
was talking to belle to whole time.
(come on PE forst two periods, followed buy CL! then eng..!)
after recess was like duhhhhh.
come on physics who listen?

dang. 2moro amath test.
AH sure fail lah!
im like should be studying now..

well remedial toally.. OMG!
cool..

well i now know how Belle felt.
yes. i really..

sth just happened.

2009-09-27T00:28:00.004+08:00

hey! i've changed my blogskin.
thought that it was cool la!
haha
anyway, today we celebrated Sunny's birthday
so glad to have him as our unit leader because he really care for every single individual
he always pushes us to do better

Thank God for Sunny!
JIAYOU in NS and your walk with God!

haha and of course today we had fun making him...

Presenting Sunny! haha the one in grey

he was wondering what the cake was made up of.
M&M with cream

he took on the challenge

he was picking them up on by one.

he is done! we tried to smash his head on the cake but failed

really thank God for this wonderful leader

my mood swing act up today. maybe because of...

well i shall not say.

but i really thank God for all the things he had allowed me to go through these weeks

like being able to study on my own, do hw, do revision.

WOAH. i dun do those things last time

but thank God.

im going to borrow a guitar soon.. play like siao cause im crazy now.

blog again next time.

2009-08-28T00:14:00.002+08:00

finally BLOG!
it really a month since i actually go blogging
not much time nowadays.
school work council stuffs.
it takes up the whole time liao

getting more and more short tempered.
AGH! cannot. this cant go on..
im sorry if i ignored you or flared up at you
didnt do it on purpose.

an busy week will go..
GOT 4 tests again 2moro!
geog, chem, eng, chi!
im killing myself soon.

alright thats abt it. blog next time..

the frasia that brings up the smile!

chickenlittle always
love God

at times i dun understand.
im sorry but if it goes this way.
im going to be like that too.
once again, and again
square one.
i will still love you.

2009-07-18T22:23:00.002+08:00

quite a while since i last blog.. hmm..
days been great? i would say.. perhaps..
new term started! haha. currently sitting with BELLE
she is a really hardworking lady.
compared to me.. WE ARE FAR ENDS.
she really inspires me a lot to study well
a true example of studying gets good grades.
she of course. is a woman after God's heart.
i can see that she give her best to God?

similarly.. i think that our area is getting noisier.. maybe because of us..
HAHA.

im joining basketball. the truth is.. i cant deny my love for this sport.
but now.. i have to start from scratch.. train hard..
because when we are given sth to do.. do it to our best.

went service today.. thought of having a breakthrough
so.. i... dun wanna mention.
and ppl's reaction was like: " WOAH."
oh my.. so embarrassing
went for NE prayermeet.
i really had a great time there.
God kept prompting me on the same verse.
2 Corinthians 5 : 7
we live by faith, not by sight.

i asked myself. how much had i live by faith?
i cant answer.
but help me to grow.
SALT AND LIGHT IN SCHOOL AND AT HOME!

was msging shepherd just now. im so touched that so late and she is looking for my present..
i mean.. dun have to give me so much..
she really love me lots.
of course.. I LOVE HER TOO!
she gave her best for all her sheeps.
i meant seldom can a shepherd do so well.
yeah.
having such a close relationship with her...
most probably is because that other than God..
she the other person i can trust.
she really help me a lot.
and every time i receive her msg.. i just feel a joy in me.
because she makes me feel that other than my family.
i still have someone who truly cares for me.
she is the greatest shepherd that anyone could have.
she does her best.
hope she sees this
NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS. AS YOU SHEEP, I WANNA PROTECT AND SUPPORT YOU!! NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS. YOU WILL STILL BE MY GREAT SHEPHERD. NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS. I STILL LOVE YOU LOTS! NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS. I WILL BE THERE FOR YOU! :)

im left with 2 days to be childish..

2009-06-24T23:37:00.002+08:00

WEE WEE HOO!

i cant wait for 2moro! NETBALL CAMP!!!!!!
haha invited the basketballers to join us.
I REALLY HOPE THEY WILL COME!!!
but i cant go for unit outing.
WAH! why am i always out in such situations.

AYG preview on sat. i just feel like going service but dang it!
i gotta go. because ms ho put in effort for us.
ETHEL AND KAREN WILL SCOLD ME FOR PANGSEHING THEM!
WHAT!!!!!!!

i miss those times when i wasnt as irritating as usual. i miss those time when i had much obedience.
God, give me obedience. im turning bck to the WORST me.
i really need to focus.
im praying.

2009-06-16T23:55:00.012+08:00

Unstoppable camp has just ended.

thats such a sad thing

though before we made our trip to downtown east, some unpleasant thing happened.

but it had all be gone during the camp

Day 1

after meeting up, went pasir ris together.

played games. V2 ROCKETS! we rock man!

we were in the same group as the west boys.

okay lah. at least they not like the central guys so noisy.

i still rmb one of the game, SOME GUY from other team played a game with me.

HE IS SO ROUGH!

i got injured. not serious.

went back checked in.

me and zixuan went around calling other room to disturb

SO FUN!

the funniest is our conversation with Sharon

we were silent

then she was like saying :"you guys dun talk im going to call the police."

then we just burst out to laughter. THATS SO HILARIOUS!

went huixuan room to play bridge.

the first and the last game.

me and zixuan totally rock man.

WE WON THE NEC GIRLS!!

NEA ROCK MAN!

THEY TOOK UGLY PHOTO OF ME in the process of play!

the photo is small.

went back to the hall. PnW was totally cool.

LOVE the teachings.

day 1 ended slept at 4.

Day 2

i was serving on this day. was pretty tired.

had mega event. boys wont in the BATTLE OF THE SEXES

haha but nvm. we are still one big family.

i also realised that my love language are

words of encouragement, quality time, gifts

the usher team took many cool photos.

once again. slept at 4

random

Day 3

shepherd was serving

sian we pratically didnt meet for 2 days!

i lost my voice on this day due to

1. welcomed and byed others for too loud

2.gave it all out for PnW!

we had game on this day. the game stopped because someone

WAS COMPLAINING

SAID TO POST THE PHOTO ON STOMP!

WAH! THAT OLD LADY NTH TO DO!

then PnW was still as usual great!

i really love it

shepherd wasnt feeling well

i was panic-ing

we prayed for her.

and God really heard it.

we met at night.

we really did had a good time of sharing things.

shepherd made me learn new things.

got to know shepherd more too.

I TRY TO NOT BULLY SHEPHERD OKAY?

went playing bridge with others

NORTHEAST FIRST TIME GIRLS AND BOYS PLAYED UNTIL CRAZY

we were noisy

haha.

i was a little tired. went back to the room. and...

i unintentionally slept! 4 plus also

Day4

haix. camp came and passed

BUT I LOVE IT YEAH!

i learn so much things.

realised and discover so many things.

it worth it.

took photos. apologies some photo are small

northeast!

usher team!

a failed jump shot

jump shot

OUR wu lian pai shot!

got see one extra head? shipeng

other than me, all are beauties

as usual, our DL act cute! XP

so shocked by him!

kaiying and i. i hate my eyes. so small

s. buddy and i

her shorties and kidish shepherd XP

with the noob shipeng! :P
shepherd and sheep. i love this :)
the retarded me and wenzhen

the randoms

2009-05-26T22:30:00.002+08:00

wah. just cant stand ppl being so unreasonable.
WHAT THE?!

you only know how to complain. thats it. in the end all we kanna
WALAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!
bugger
you nv give dun expect to receive.

stop letting me suffer.
im just 14+ years old.
happiness.
could nv be spelt in your dumb dictionary!

**** &^%*%#^#!

2009-05-25T20:45:00.002+08:00

tags replied:
caiwen: why not give you 180. YOUR AIM!! MUAHAHAHAHA! anyway jiayou for work attactment
^^: oh my goodness! ms connie tag me??? or is weisi acting? haha exams over liao! Where is my lolipop?! :)
deena: updated.
joanna: :)
wanying :)
weisi: whatever. is you bully me lor. you so big-sized. im so small. ppl also know who bully who lor
wenzhen: now i can go for camp! :) see ya at camp! actually everyday also can see you. love ya shepherd
liping: yeah liping! everything over! :)
donavon: HI! :) yo! don
belle: LOVE you too dummy! :) haha thanks :)
kelvin: :)

i grew a lot. i could see it

in height, weight and character

i was once like as short as 148cm. where all the netball seniors are laughing at me. called me short. but now.. i have grown form 152cm to 158 cm to current, 160cm. woah! much taller then those seniors. turn around to laugh at them . HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! SHORTIES!

was once someone who is just 30kg to 40kg. woah 3 years 10kg.. not bad. but i still think that im skinny. dun JEALOUS! i like some bamboo stick seriously! anyone wanna go through grow fat program... COME TO ME. look at the amount i eat. wa for sure will grow fat.

character. not going to say much. but frankly speaking. BREAKTHROUGH nowadays. i actually took many first steps to apologise to ppl, not like the usual one.
i cared abt me being great. till now only bothers about the process. i m going to do well

okay one thing obvious. results? sec1 and 2 still ok. pri school shit
but noe guess what. i managed to maintain a no fail record. other than the stupid a maths!
but mid-year results pretty happy but if i put in more effort.. could do better?
not to boast dun feel insulted

English: 68.4 B3
Chinese: 60.3 B4
A maths: 60.8 B4
E maths: 75.9 A1
Chemistry: 60.7 B4
Physics: 56.5 C5
Combine Humanities: 74.8 A2
Pure Geography: 69 B3

i thought that i didnt do well enough. if i didnt slack around in class. sleep during lessons. not doing hw. not revising when i got the time. other than my eng and chi, all should get distinction. but i did improved on my english! i used to fail it like a D7, E8. but i improve! YEAH! however i still will work on it. i made a promise to my mum. more distinction. and results could go SAJC. SAJC! HERE I COME! should start preparing for holiday revision. and work towards DISTINCTION.

i have a big question for myself: SHOULD I OR SHOULD I NOT?

im not afraid of failures anymore. i have God with me. Always and Forever
I can go for camp!
NEA all the way!

2009-05-04T22:03:00.002+08:00

i happened to be surfing the net.
blog hopping decided to find the meaning for stress
this are few things i found at dictionary.com

-a specific response by the body to a stimulus, as fear or pain, that disturbs or interferes with the normal physiological equilibrium of an organism.
-physical, mental, or emotional strain or tension: Worry over his job and his wife's health put him under a great stress.
-a situation, occurrence, or factor causing this: The stress of being trapped in the elevator gave him a pounding headache.
- Archaic. strong or straining exertion

seems like im really stressed up.
but the exact real fact is that im slacking away
however as mentioned, i totally think that i suited the four explanation
i get headache easily nowadays. panadol is always needed?
it happened that today, a strand of my hair dropped
i took it up and examine ( not really listening to whatever the teacher is talking)
i saw partially of it white. i tried to clean it off. but cant
dang i got my first white hair?

many ppl seems to see me super carefree in class. the most slackest in 308
but the thing is. i lacked of discipline to really study.
i totally just stress till bonkers.
i think some ppl might get what i mean but others wont.

how i wish i just get swine flu and stayed quarantined.
but things dun get off so easily

i cant go services as often
i cant attend cg.
i cant get out.
until the exams end
i just feel so far away from God,
especially the news i cant go for camp.
God, is this what planned meant for me?
however, after tansi told me sth, i actually wasnt far from God
in fact we got closer.
me depending him more
in times of troubles.
me reading his word more
in times of needs

i just pray that exams would get off my back.
everything would go to normal.
results not sucky(i need to put in more effort and time)
i can go for camp.
simple as that.
however, quite disappointed by sth.
trust.
no one understands me well. including ppl who knows me well.
im very disappointed.
God, take me away now. im really suffering.

anyway, get off my back buggers(i dunno how you spell that)
it totally irritating alright. small thing only
just shut up and get off
dun interfere. pls i just beg you.
im very irritated now.
i get more and more bad tempered, agitated easily, get irritated easily.
the only thing to release all these: be irritating

dang! totally disappointed and stressed up

no one else can satisfy me, including everyone. except the mighty LORD

2009-04-18T21:16:00.002+08:00

tags replied:(sorry for super late replies)
siti: no prob. its my job anyway :)
gab: hi:)
belle : LOL!
michelle : HI! YOU ROCK MAN! :)
emily : yeah
wanying: lol you nv leave link.
junling : CHEWJUNLING! what you want? haha :)
tansi: hey buddy!
shepherd: hey hey! amen. thank God for you. cant believe i have you as my shep. you are such a good role model. love ya lots! sheepy <3 shepherd!!!

apologies for MIA-ing for so long.
im a 'busy' person.
this week had been a very "thoughtful" week
much thinking happened.

it happened that i was sitting at the corner of somewhere
thinking abt how i spent this and the previous week
i practically didnt have a day i could spend sleeping well
i chose it myself

last week had northeast family day.(spoiler day. it rained halfway.)
i had fun being the gm. cool. sunburned.
it was..
OMG!
the day b4 had our meeting with sunny.
we played basketball! totally fun there too
sun easter service.
was totally sian from the sunburned plus a bit flu.

this week hasnt been a great week
didnt go for both badminton and netball training on both wed and mn
mon sick
wed dental

i did not know why wed i spent one hour thinking in the train.
or i would say at that time i stone-ed
just happened to get to know that.. the attitude im having now wont get me far
my learning attitude in class
i think that i am not someone who often does her work
i hand up hw late
just hate it lah
i hope there is a cure for my laziness
however.
God also revealed to me that i can take my shepherd as an example.
hardworking.
diligent
smart.
tolerance
love
care
passion
funny
put first things first
kindness
joy

of course many more
she possesses them.
an good living example.
i could learn from her
no wonder she is my shepherd

i also realised that life wasnt as smooth.
i should continue
decided to do a summary on my life below

SELF
i haven been lately doing my best. not the best trouper standard. i somehow lost it. i dun put in 100%. but i must listen to shepherd. RETAIN the commitment. i will. challenges faced should be conquer. I DUN HAVE TO BE CAPABLE, I JUST HAVE TO BE WILLING! now studies. give mum my best results.

SCHOOL
schl is fine. except the fact that my week is always dull.

NETBALL
had match today. jiayou netballers. we will always be a team. dun let others look down on us. we are who we are. let all defeats bring up our more glorious victory. because those who loses victoriously, understand the real meaning of VICTORY. LOVE DEYI NETBALL <3

COUNCIL
invest is over. now currently nth to do. but some politics problems still there. WHATEVER FOR. put in our best. lets not disappoint the seniors. lets nt get affected. respect others. stop bitching. JUST DO IT.listen to advices.

i have come in contact further. to understand what the world is like. i understand much.
post more nxt time

2009-03-22T21:37:00.002+08:00

sat learn sth during service. really did
and what daniel say was totally right.
thought it would be nice to share.

PPL BLOG DUN DIRECTLY SAY THE PERSON,BUT INDIRECTLY SHOOT THE FELLOW

i totally agree. y? i was once, in fact still like that.
if i hate you(eg monkey)
would i tell you straight into your face on blog that "i hate you, monkey? you sux"
will you do that?
or you tag ppl and your name goes like this : "nameless:you freaking b*tch, shut your trap up."
i would say most bloggers are like that.
but after much thinking. its human nature
but God didnt create us to be like that. i bet
but why is human hurting one another this way? we are a family.
are we not? whatever. everyone denies it.
they would say: "eline you noob ah. bangla also your brother ah?"
the fact is. they are.

hols is over.
schl is starting
homework is coming
stress is packing.
joy is reducing.
fun is deducing
enjoyment is cutting.
fear is moving.
time is racing.
smile is stopping
i m studying.

sian sick.
after the shepherds camp.
the camp was totally cool.
something that reminds me of discipline, obedience
once again.
after noon we had some fellowship
played games. totally cool.
the dinner was great. and the catching was totally come.
praise and worship
then we had our totally cool night activity.
went through some sort of tribulation
cant believe but i managed to hang on. till the end.
this really make me feel the existence of God once again
He is true

still sick now hope i would just be fine.
had just so called choinged finished my work. horrible me.
now studies is important le.
but i shall not forsake God. i shall not leave Him
and DUN you want me to leave.
dun force me. dun sabo me.
dun pull me away
dun stray me out.
dun try anything funny
dun you try to make me sin more.
dun you try to take me to lala land or what so ever
dun you make me fall into the hand of devil, for they are the lord's enemy
just let me continue.
for i throw my whole life to Him.
i am ready for all challenges. come on
i love God

i m going through a emotional transformation.

2009-03-17T21:06:00.002+08:00

i like the feeling of holiday. cause i got extra time to rest.
but currently i think that hols is a night mare. so much hw.
anyway. having quite bad headache nowadays.
hope it will just go off.

got bck progress report. a bit disappointed.
didnt do well for language. just pass.
the rest still ok except for the one that failed just by...
1 mark.
hate this man.
gonna work harder. especially on eng. CMI
action speak louder than words.

yesterday cut-ed my hair. went campus. wah.
nxt time ppl. nvm ask darylene to take you to anyway.
she dun walk shorcuts.
i think that yesterday. jarod didnt sing well.
aijia as usual still the best. then rachel.
she was good. but just still could be better.
joselin too. jiamin.. THE FUNNIEST!
haha she very cute. i jus kept laughing. throughout.
too-too-too her first time result not good
haha mavis performance was good. but still i think all could be better

sadly say, the two that i quite support. got out. joselin and rachel
so sad.
mavis got in top 4. jiayou.

2moro got metamorphosis. cool. look forward.
thurs-fri shepherds' camp. look forward too

i just hope the time would stop. allow me to complete everything.
then go.

hate losers

2009-03-07T23:33:00.003+08:00

tags replied:
jass: HEY YO!
ruijun: YEAH! haha best friend! you too :)
tansi: LOVE YA TOO!!! :D
vic: HELLO! thanks for tagging!!! you free on 14 mar? :)
kelvin: HIHI! thanks for tagging
heidi:haha my rocket can work in any ways! yeah i will grow stronger! haha thanks for your listening ear! haha you too yeah! :)
belle: HELLOOOO!! :)

this week had been a busy one..
filled with tests, rehearsals, homework ..

i had 6 tests in total. 1 eng, 2 chi, 1 chem, 1 phy, 1 a maths
out of all six, i will fail at least 2. die.
but since everything is over. i shall forget abt it
it all has been done and i can do nth abt it.

went for my dental appointment on wed.
didnt go for netball training.
ppl say i pon.. whatever!
my teeth pain for a few days. a bit cant chew things.

lesson was great. this week is quite a miracle. i didnt feel tired during lessons!
fri had extra geog lesson. i dun feel tired at all. we watch the movie one volcanoes.
nice. totally nice.
had rehearsal after that.
cool. totally enjoyed it.
unity is starting to get stronger. because we are all in this together.
dance had progress. everything had a little progress.
though i saw sth that isnt that good. but i hope ppl would grow and learn from it
the journey of leadership isnt simple as what u thought.
you must always sacrifice many things. including time and many others.
we had great time doing the drills. haha! SHOW OFF!
no lahh it just look so fun. we got addicted to it.
dinnered with cg.

sat. shepherd wenzhen went malaysia.
hope she will enjoy. hope she will be fine.
went service. wasnt late. had a great time in worship and praise.
i felt that God really speak to me. he always does.
then lunched. went for shepherds' meet. my first one.
had great time there. especially the game. haha.
went i got"cut" i just pull ruiyong. haha so fun!
hope i didnt hurt him.. haha lol
really had great time. really learn
i should take the initiative to know the northeast guys.
cause its not a girls or boys prob. its a northeast prob.
went home with tansi. saw edmund. he grow a lot

having ned shepherds meet. cool man.
im quite tired though but i must attend!
i would just pray for strength.
this few weeks had been really busy and packed.
really took up a lot of my energy.

but thank God, mon got elearning.

2009-03-01T21:31:00.002+08:00

CAMP CONQUEST! RATING: BEST CAMP EVER!

i would really say this deep down in my heart. it much better than orientation camp.. it much interesting than CAMP PASSION. it much challenging than SL Alumni Camp. it much more engaging than SL orientation camp. i would really dare to say that..

those ppl who missed the camp.. really miss a lot. it really had quite a great impact inside me..

i rmb one of the camp objective that i have is to be a better leader. i would say i have reach there. frankly speaking. i now realised in a greater picture of leadership. that position dun matter. it is the affirmation and the impact you have in others. im glad that i felt this way. maybe the affirmation (identity tag) by the PM had told me that i should continue to strive and not give up be it for anything that happens. If i can't, then i must. frankly speaking, i will really want to serve and strive more now. than i used to. during the camp, i told myself not to bring the identity of me being a Deyian only , but to bring the identity of God's child and an identity of a leader from the student council. gladly said. i managed to do it. to me a leader must lead. or else you are not a leader. not trying to boast, i did managed to glorify God's name and of course the student council name.

first day, i brought a empty heart there. hoping for things to fill it up. the first day, we had BMT(Basic Military Training) it was totally cool lahh. but sadly to say. i injured my knee. again. currently i hoping for it to heal. cause i injured me old injury while i was trying to lay flat on the ground. the injury did act up for a few times. but i did managed to bare with the pain. we did the postman walk.. fun. i told myself to finish the whole thing. i focus on my outcome. i strive for whatever i wanna achieve. Do it once, Do it fast, Do it right. food there was good. the POP was totally cool too.. we did drills too.. cant imagine that a netballer could actually do drills. first day was totally cool.

second day. the night b4 woke up every hour. i guess because not used the conditions there plus the noise? was pretty annoyed. stand by bed.. wahh. 43 mistakes! Choices have consequences. times 10 is 430 success claps. wahh tired like hell! the first step i took closer to leadership was during consequences. that i took the lead and initiative to say 1 2 3. it was my very first step. even though it look as simple. but it needs a lot of courage to say that. second day was as cool. the CO night was cool. i saw that 308 could be a strong-bond class. One for All, All for one. i really saw that. i know that we would strive as one. We managed to do the best, managed to engaged the audience heart. we managed to do it as one. ALL THE BEST 308! WE WILL STRIVE! i happened to see Ivy doing the postman walk.. she is totally someone that everyone should learn from. she fell but managed to get up. There is no failure, only learning experiences. she embraced the " nv give up" spirit.

third day, i had a good sleep. everything was great. took class photos. had our graduation parade. we are now corporal. and of course im glad that i embrace my leadership spirit. and they saw it. when they announce that i was the best trouper. i was pretty shocked. i knew more ppl have more potential. CHEERS TO MICHELLE! she got it too. zexuan too.. jiayous! i told myself to let this identity tag be a reminder for me. that this happened b4.

okay i shall post more nxt time. needa sleep

2009-02-16T22:20:00.003+08:00

its been a while since i update.. sorry.

life has been booked. by stress, problems and everything.
i had failed quite a few tests. mostly maths. i have to work hard.
the pressure that teachers are giving.. terrible :X
the pressure that are given in my surrounding?
the pressure that im giving myself.. :(

problems.. WHAT OTHER PROBLEMS DO I HAVE?
the same old ones. that no one saw the importance.
i shall be straight forward.. cause thats what mdm loke thinks of me..
err. as leaders. we must take initiative right?
i took the lead. but now im seems to be the one disagreeing with everything.
but when i took it. it seems nth working.
and that the way ppl look at this. it sux. it really does demoralise ppl.
but after reading Matthew. i realised that i dun work for others to see.
i do it silently so that i will be rewarded in secret.
but i fight for the chance but still cant.. WHAT AM I GONNA DO?!
however if others think that we are the ones with many chances..
MUST GIVE PPL CHANCE!
dun say we slack ok. is we are giving chance.
i hope all this would go away.

now lots of responsibilities coming.
down with many stuffs.
classes. tests. works.

yeah. i have to work harder!
IM GOING TO WORK HARD TO BE A SHEPHERD!
yeah 2moro follow up-ing geok ling.
gonna prepare my fullest attention to it.

went for my first badminton training today.. cool.
haha i dun play really well.. haha
hand a bit tired maybe not used to it.

im going to look forward to more challenges.
im going to get myself ready.
im going to persevere through.
im going to FIGHT!

tags replied:
heidi: ROAR!!!! whatever. yeah i like them lahh. and if you are super glam.. then im ultra glam!
huixuan: HI! :)
tiffany: HEY! long time no see! i miss you! haha yeah. having fun there?
tansi: haha thanks! HEY YO! SPIRITUAL BUDDY!!!
vic:thanks!
kelvin: thanks!
jiajia: HI! THANKS!
deeyana: HI!
michelle: here im doing it.
caiwen: hey yo! im too cute.. thats true..
deena: here im updating!

2009-01-31T22:43:00.002+08:00

talk abt yesterday. a pretty interesting day.

it wasnt my day at all. morning woke up late! rushed down but was pretty lucky.. managed to reach on time but was late for outreach. wasnt feeling great. pretty nervous and tired. my heart wasnt on lessons. my first day in my sec 3 life. im this way. because i thought that im a nerd lehh.. friday. double sci in the morning. straight after one another.guess what? didnt slept during chem but during physics. i start to realised that chem was so fun? interesting? maybe because of the angbao!

had geog test. wasnt really smooth. why is that so man?!recess. wasnt a great recess too. gonna rush here and there a maths work. sian. i hate it man. then a maths my heart was somewhere else. i dunno y. just didnt realise myself concentrating. whats the real reason? until now i still dunno.hist also wasnt concentrating. at that point of time i know that my heart was for match. cant wait for the time to reach. then we met up and headed to rp. here comes the story..

i was really scared lahh cause now 'B' division lahh. so weird. and every team get stronger. training i treat quite seriously i guess.. and when the match started i panicked. because im playing for 1 quarter. though is only one, but it can make the situation change. when my turn comes. my heart was pumping faster each step i take. on match. lucky dint forget some thing but still got forget other things.senior say i hide behind the player but if those ppl know how i play, they will know what im doing. since one quarter only. i gave my fullest strength and speed. managed to intercept some passes but really didnt play well.. however. because that i really have the " wanting to get the ball so much " thinking. i fell. i would say not very badly. but pretty loud. bang! we won. but our standard could be better. i was asking weisi that when i fall was i cool? she said no but when i got up.. i m!!!

then met up with emily after slacking in the canteen. saw rachel and ppl on the way.. so talk to huixuan. she told me that yck win sjc! omg! the first thing i do is to tell karen! i cant believe it man..

today is sat. went for service. was great cause i learn.. and receive the greatest present from wenzhen. she made me almost cry man. but i didnt! stupid made me so paiseh in front of the cg members. but i love the present. so much like how i love my shepherd! thank you shepherd! and they were teasing me lahh. sian. after lunch studied with them and i was pretty tired the moment when i open up my physics tb. haha so funny when studying with them..

y on the match that day my injuries not pain?. only now. my right hip hurts when i rub there. my shoulders hurts when i move it much. i hope i could heal fast. and y must every north zone give me such ' wonderful presents' ? i really hate it.against sjc on mon. i will put in my fullest effort. because i believe that we are not so-so. we are a fantastic netball team.

anyway.. WEISI GET WELL SOON! the team needs such a good player like you.

tags replied:
belle: hi! :)
meihui: yeah i will. thanks for ya concern :)
wenzhen: i hate pink i hate pink i hate pink! stop trying to influence my mind with them man. it looks so funny on me.
zixuan: ok.. :)
wesi: hey dude! is the other way round ok.. is i miss you crapping and bullying me in class. opps.. i dun miss it at all. tag you liao! :D get well soon
waimei: yea. i will stress so disgusting.
vic: thank for you hoping for us to win.. thanks.

2009-01-25T19:54:00.002+08:00

i need time for me to relax or to say release stress.
my old problem is coming back. the hw problem.
sometimes i just thought that i would leave time for me to rest but i shouldnt.
i had too much time to rest.
homework come in a stack. not piece.

some sort of that i hate to say but.
is position that important?
why must everyone fight for that?
politics politics and politics
is that the life that everyone wanted?
now truly. im not going to bother abt position anymore.
like how i used to be. im going to bother abt serving God.
and if God wants me to be, i will be.
everything is fated.

i always look forward to saturdays.
the mighty God always speak to me.
this week i learned that sacrificial love for my family is pretty important.
now all i need is a little patience and effort to bring everything together.
i believe with my effort i can make everything well.

today is a pretty special day.
3 months had passed. ive seen myself grow
not only physically but spiritually.
God had blessed me with many things.
a wonderful place to be in, wonderful caregroup, 2 wonderful shepherds.
that i know every sat i have a place where i can really relax and be myself.
a place for me to sing out loud a place for me to praise God.
this is a place for me to worship the one that i wanna to be.
God had also blessed me to be in this cg that everyone cares for each other.
a wonderful shepherd. that always help me through things.
she has been great in my life.
from the day where i stepped in to the hse of God.
till today. she had showed her greatest love and care for me.
im a very mischievous and a stupid sheep.
i get lost easily and always have troubles with me.
but these great shepherds that i have is always there for me.
always by my side.
though many rumours had been spread that come negative on me.
but i would like to say that.
i truly go on my own accord not like what you guys say that i wanted to get closer to my shepherd so that i can get things that i wanted.
crap. and if that this rumours continue.
dun blame me for what i am going to do.
and if you think that YOU wanna get the position so be it.

i cant imagine a day without my shepherd.
i would be totally lost totally.
i want to protect my shepherd.
plus,
from the highest mountain to the deepest sea, i love my shepherd.

yeah some sort of this year.. super special.
not only that i had became mature(perhaps?)
because of my shepherd who is soooooooooo feminine
she somehow influenced my mind lahh.
whenever im not feminine, she would say me lahh.
she is a pink lover.
because of all the above, she influenced me to challenge myself to sth.
wear a skirt! ohmygosh. in my whole life i had nv really wore a skirt. other than the sch one.
and i really not say hate but dun really like pink. my innowits file is pink
ohmygosh!
and above all that, i bought a pinkshoes
ohmygoodness! WHAT ON EARTH HAS HAPPENED TO ME!

happy CNY in advanced.
reunion dinner was great.
but God and my shpherd is greater

2009-01-18T21:42:00.003+08:00

apologies ppl. its been days since i updated. yeah didnt have that much extra time to blog. school reopen. many things just happen. be it good or bad.

now my life can be spelt by stress. in my whole life i have nv encounter this word. maybe this is my first step to a new chapter of my life. basically. the expectations by teachers is high just because we are 308. right. to me i have to run and endure. more than others. cause im those runners that is behind. not a very easy task. however, this is a great year indeed. i received sth special this year.

this year, i have changed my attitude towards some things.but some still cant changed. im trying to! some sort of im trying to move towards success.

ok just basically hate those ppl that actually lie to me.ya those lies can really hurt.in my whole life i wanted the truth. but ya. lies before truth hurt me. it really hurt. i rather to hear those truth that i dun wish to hear than those lies..

yesterday when i was alone, i played the video of my life. its so cool. being able to sit down alone. look at things i have done the past years. at that point of time, i managed to reach the feeling of i can feel im free, im flying. it seems to me that i was myself flying in the skies freely. though my journey wasnt that smooth but i managed to reach my destination. dun you think that i got some supernatural power? being able to see this image and reached that stage of imagination. all things are fated. but you can change your fate. effort. effort is what you need. i hope that feeling of free, can always be there so that i wont constraint myself. and all i know is that, " I WILL PROVE THOSE PPL WRONG!" i might be not as great as those ppl but i believe i can do it. i will make you regret.

2moro, got cca. gonna go for it. a new challenge has arrive

and too i realised that we are meeting SJC again. we will win. we will have victory. WE WILL PROVE YOU WRONG TOO!

some sort of having some insecurity. i dun really trust others. cause i just saw this image. A person holding a knife on a hand and stretching out the other one. what does it tells me? it is just so scary. ppl dun blame me for my sucky attitude at times or just simply dun trust you. because i feared to see that image again. ive seen it twice and each time it shows more details. i feared. i really need some help. i have been having nightmare. it is just so scary. can i get out of this? as soon as possible. cause it seems to me that i cant breath.

AGH!!

tags replied:
joselin: i still rmb you. link you soon.
junling : JUNLING! ?
weisi: ya lahh ya lahh love you too lahh. blog liao lahh. sorry busy
zixuan: haha ok!
caiwen: yo thanks man
kelvin:thanks
darylene: update liao. sorry i put school work first. so no much time to blog
sam: just angry abt that bad leadership of hers. stupid dun even wanna help us at all. she is just so useless. so angry abt the way she treats us.
wenzhen:i m lahh. im irritating. rude. idiotic. all sorts of negative things can describe me. sorry for everything i did. i just feel so lousy. i just dun think that im good enough to be treated good. because you put in so much effort. help me through things and i like wasted your effort. perhaps im afraid that i hurt you again. i dun want to cause i wanna protect my shepherd. sorry for making you having such a useless sheep. and im not sad abt that thing you told me, but is the thing that someone lied to me. shepherd. i am a lousy sheep that you ever had. im not fit for your best care and love. i suck

2009-01-01T23:07:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

what's a new year without a brand neew start?

nth. it means nth.

so im trying my best to improve on my studies, my character.

i hope for the best for everything.

for me to improve on my studies(if you see the 308'09 class list, im the most stupid one)

for my to be able to expand my knowledge

for me to be able to calm myself

for me to be not so hot tempered.

for me to be ready for challenges.

for me to face problems.

for the council strive

many things.

of course most important new year resolution.

i set a few.

gonna get them. shall post more 2moro.

brand new start.

i cant wait for 2moro

2008-12-30T14:57:00.002+08:00

firstly i need to type this real fast cause gonna log out soon. got work later. 2 more days.

yesterday went back for schl for orientation trail. not trying to say anything.
things can be improved. but there are things that are done great. CLAPS! good job.
they improved. i see a great improvement. but there are still room for improvement

ok played games and is real fun. fun. haha enjoyed. bought logistics stuffs. haha ian look like an aunty with a trolley.
ok wnet back play basketball. sadly say i did not play very well. i still cant conquer my fear :(
went back home them start preparing. going out with shepherd for shepherding.
sorry i was late. super late. tired too.
so during shepherding, i was rather.. tired. not concentrating at times.
sorry. im like this at times. laziness.
i will conquer them.
mum finally agreed with me for one thing she had disagreed with me for long.
she is willing to give me a chance.
but if i fail, she going to ban me.
mum i will prove to you and officiate it. when i am succesful.

heard news that every student has to take up a sport, for olympic thingy.
im going to train myself.
i wanna represent singapore. my dream since im young.
but currently im the noobest netballer.
looks like this dream is a bit impossible.
i will try my best. have faith. i will see myself high. up high.

post more later. gonna go.

2008-12-24T02:12:00.003+08:00

hello ppl!

life has been really systematic these few days.

job, sleep.job,sleep.

that's everyone's life with job. must get used to it.

i have no free time for outings, gatherings etc.

this shows that no time for shopping.

apologies ppl, this year i gotta give everyone a late Christmas present

or you might get none from me.

busy.broke.

but there is 2 presents i would never forget.

no cards too. really sorry

ppl, is life still ok?

have gathering soon.

but hope i can attend.

sort of miss xueli suddenly. i dunno y.

maybe because when she talk to me she is so funny

the way she talk is just so unique in my life

she impacted my life with a sense of humour.

cant believe it? but it is true.

random life i have been going.

study soon. hope can start immediately.

29 going to ice skate with wenzhen and ppl.

XUELI, you must go!

2moro is Christmas eve.

hope it just reach soon,

gonna have so much fun with ppl.

love it.

26 gonna go out with ah boy.

hope he will make it.

these few day partially why im not having time for anything else is that

im composing song.

lyrics i mean

haha just sort of have inspiration from many ppl.

i wanna learn all sorts of music thing and im starting out with composition.

would i go out well?

yeah hope so. have faith.

and if you suddenly hear me singing weird songs. probably im trying to sing a tune

i hurt my vocal and i cant sing well now.

sigh. boring

tags replied:

wenzhen(shepherd):haha its true. im touched too ok. by your efforts and everything. me and jasmine are really fortunate to have you as a shepherd. its our honour. JIAYOU!

kelvin: thanks

weisi: lazy lahh

passer-by: haha why did you google my name? haha anyway thanks. but this is me. :P anyway you can just leave your name.

deena: camp is really fun. super.

darylene: ok sure. cause you call me is need help ma. anyway im going for work later. thanks

rowena: haha yeah CP2. link you soon. and see ya

adeline:yangyangyangyangyang

brenda: hahaha hello. thanks for coming.

vic: lol. thanks

michelle: heroes is great. simple that i would say.

2008-12-22T12:03:00.002+08:00

wahahaha! in schl now. slacking? probably. at least better than being at somewhere else waiting for time to pass by. ppl say i very long nv update. lol it is like only 4 days? however it has been 6 days since camp. miss it soooooo real much man!

heroes camp is the best. i would say not only for the things that we learn but the things that we eat and the ppl that we know. the only camp that allow me to get to know new friends. though at times i just feel like sleeping, but the best part is that i grew stronger, mightier, braver! and for those ppl who had miss the camp, you really had miss all the fun and enjoyable stuffs. I LOVE HEROES CAMP!

yeah but everything has to come to an end. am i right? even the earth is coming to an end soon. very soon. because that we, irresponsible humans, keep making the earth grew weaker, and weaker. day by day.

whatever it is, 19 dec went back to schl. yeah the juniors are so funny ( sc de). i was talking to them and they were talking to me. so cool! i thought that i couldnt go well with them, but the fact is that. i managed! because i have faith.

20 didnt go for work cause, i was sick plus wasnt really free on the day.

21 basically went boon keng and ya for work. anyone who works have a boring life. do you agree?

today is 22! yeah early in the morning got disturbed by some hongkong person telling me that im invited to a dinner. CRAP! i didnt even know where on earth or i dun even understand. wah make me cannot sleep. ok. then prepared to go to schl! yeah man. now probably still slacking, after mins have passed.

cant wait for 24 gonna overnight? hope mum allow. cause it is one of the things that i waited for every year. counting down for christmas!

yeah post more later.

2008-12-18T00:19:00.002+08:00

slept late yesterday. so woke up late too.

morning wasn't that great cause i was having sore throat! need to work later lehh. and i dun wanna fall sick cause i want to go schl on fri and sat to go out. i was tired, though im awake. was going to fell asleep when the clock hits 2. gonna prepare for things and for work too. yeah work today seems to time fly fast. seems to be busy ahh. first time my sales better than sis. haha by luck lahh. went home at 10 plus reached home at 11++. sian this will be my life until the day the boss sack me or i sack her. no time to study liao sian. gonna really find time. also, cant go for many cg outing like today :( cant go bowling wth joontong and ppl. I WANT STUDY! I WANT CG! I WANT BOWLING! i want my shepherd to talk to me when both of us are free. sian looks like difficult task but i must have faith! the greater the faith the more things i can do!

just finish chatting with shepherd. i will try my best in the task she gave me. sleep early shepherd and get well soon. haha i should say this to myself too. cause im running down with a flu and sore throat. currently i can feel heat in my body and i gonna get fever soon. i hope not. my shepherd gave me a task, to be a shepherd by end of dec. try my very best. have faith. also, glad that my shepherd love me cause i love her too!

SHEEPY LOVE SHEPHERD!

2008-12-16T22:56:00.002+08:00

back from HEROES camp. prepare for this post to be long cos. i just got too much to say!

4days3nights camp seems to be long. but it really short. time flies like a blink of the eye. i happen to be missing home. APOLOGIES, had too much fun didnt think much abt others :P of course nv forget deena lahh. this 4 days everyone took care of me. showed the greatest care i gonna thank them soooooooo much! first lets talk abt sat.

met up with ppl. of course my mama lahh. i was early not YOU late haha. got to go there with zixuan. they were trying to like bully karchian's(did i spell correctly?) bear. so funny. ok had lunch at11+. you can imagine what happen(i was thinking of food real early) . ok everyone was squeezing the bus. haha the bus was filled with campers, excited campers. everyone walk quickly for camp. had games. and the some ned girl happen to with the central guys(they are crazy boys from SJI, too bad no shuai ge :P) had fun i can say. yeah. then check in and stuffs. i was really dirty because of the water game. had dinner and all i could say is that the opening ceremony was fantastic beautiful. i like it. had activities. then went back room to rest and to sleep. emily met us shared shared things and off to bed.

second day was day in hall. without shepherd pei-ing me :( she had duty. ok talk with others and tansi. hahah she came on 2nd day. and camp was meant to be those ppl would camp ' no good food time' but guess what we had SUBWAY FOR LUNCH! woah. ok then had workshop and stuffs. went back room. free time then had MINILUTION! i was not the kind to be a kid lahh. cause im too mature! but my mama was... like a kid. then the way she dressed up... OHMYGOSH! she look totally like a kid. then the way she talk was... ok then tansi was drinking water and she happened to talk. so tansi was like 'vomit water' out. she like laughing and kaughing and laughing. at first i didnt laugh but i joined in cause i know what she is laughing at. funny. it was totally fun looking at others dressing up like a kid. ok then we had dinner at hall, and they played tom and jerry. my favourite childhood show. the program started off with the shepherd and leaders appreciation. and when they were talking abt it, i actually cried quietly. nobody knows it man. cuase the way they contribute in our life was really great. of course i cried because of my dearest shepherd. she can actually tolerate my nonsense and everything. she showed the greatest care for me lahh. ok i prepared a card but didnt gave it to her immediately. cause it is part of me and tansi trick. to our shepherds. eunice and wenzhen. ok at night when she was talking to me, i slot it under her bag and she saw it. still down there acting. (i was act the window to act as nth happen, tryig not to laugh.) i hope she would like it a lot. though it was a last min thing but it has the first min love. we shared bed to sleep. i hope i disnt distured her. (but probably it is the other way round :p)

third day was totally. HIGH. everything was really enjoyable. game was really fun. but my group was obviously slacking. SJI guys was crazy. totally. ok free time basically more slacking in the room. ok at night we had our SLUMBER PARTY! fun till the highest. NED! was really enjoying ourselves. celebrated december babies birthday. yeah then i was tired so i told wenzhen to wake me up when emily wanna meet us. yeah but hse dint meet us so i was... sleeping like a pig.

i slept the earliest but woke up the latest. and i can feel that i had some 'fights' at night. cause i just think i had such a great sleep that i think i disturbed till wenzhen. she told me she tried to wake me up so that she can sleep. but a pig like me just cant. so poor wenzhen had to squeeze. ok didnt feel like leaving at all. phototaking was much fun. sorry phone just dun wanna post it. wanted to went back home but just cant bare to leavt the place at all. had lunch with cg. was like cant bare to leave at all. ok but everything has to come to an end. took train back. everyone was sleeping.except a few like me who was energetic. i dunno y. ok seperated ways heidi took same bus as me. haha simple she sccompany me lahh. haha. can see that she was tired. ok reached home and i just feel tired suddenly so... sleep lorr!

ok here are just some words for ppl ppl wh i got to know this few days and also b4 lahh.

rachel, thank you for the care you showedto me yeah basically she did everything for the best of me.

zixuan, you are jsut sooo funny.

heidi, i didnt know you eat so little. haha thanks for accompanying me. get well soon.

emily, thanks for taking care of me.

eunice, you are soooooo cute during the minilution. ok u treat me well, took care of me. yeah thanks.

tansi, yeah got to know each other better got to talk to each other, shared things together. yeah these few days really had fun together. you helped me through much. i should learn from you how to be a better sheep. and yeah the lift incident you were really brave.

and now of course for me DEARESR SHEPHERD CUM MAMA! WENZHEN!

yeah like what the card says, there is too much for me to say abt you. your care for me, really touches me a lot. your perseverance for taking care of me was really fantastic, too great to imagine. you made me really got to see the best love that i could have. as a friend, you made me feel so like wanting to not lose you as one. as a senior, you lead me through my life, guide me through. tell me my mistakes so that i can learn. as a MAMA, you cared for me, helped me, teach me. as a shepherd, you have faith in me. shown light in my life. tolerate everything. made me learn. give me confidence. and also i didnt wanna change shepherd at all. and nv i will. it is just an honour to have you as a shepherd, to get to know you. it was me that i have to worry that you dun wan me le. your encouragement for me, i will nv forget because if i do, im just some stupid person. (thats what makes you win the award) and also during this four days i just irritate you, and you still act as nth happens(i know at times im super irritating but you just didnt want me to be sad.) and these fews days you really made me learn a lot. you allowed me not to give up so easily. and also from your help, im able to fulfil most, in fact all my camp objectives. i really cant imagine a friend without friends, a junior without senior, a child without mama, most importantly, a sheep without a shepherd. i just want you too rmb that i always wanted to be your friend, junior, chold, and sheep. i really got to much to say too you lahh. till i dunno what to type in a while. i really want to tell you this, 老娘，小女儿真得很爱你哦！i really wanna thanks you for everything you done for me. have faith in me. allow me to discover my gift of faith. prepare for a surprise from me. i had too much to say to you. frankly speaking.

tags replied:
darylene: yeah, i agree. thats why im working hard now. thanks. may it be in the past.
kelvin:thanks for tagging.
ben: why do you have to comment on her? sooooo care abt her lehh.
vic:hello! sure i will. you too.
weisi: haha thanks
deena: ok sure i will. i miss you so much. camp was super fun. one of the best camp i ever went. yeah im touched lahh you come tag my blog. everyday! haha hope to see you soon. you take care too

I've gone through a life transformation.

I am a HERO now, a true HERO!

2008-12-12T11:43:00.002+08:00

whatever it is i shall post the happy things. those which are not later.

yeah! i love the caregroup ppl. all! because now they are the ones that brought me the greatest smiles. they went past the previous one. i finally now what is joy, happiness. it is not the smile that you have , it is abt the meaning of the smile. went for my very first cg yesterday! i love it truly. it was the best gathering i ever had. much better than many other things. got to know more ppl. so cool. and yeah ppl there are really funny. so they were talking abt camp stuffs. yeah. cool man. gonna have sooooooooo much fun. need to leave early cause got work. yeah work was pretty cool too. though it was really boring. i mean i found myself time to be alone to calm down. to reflect on different ppl telling me on the same issue.

here comes the not-so-good news. i mean that i was trying to point out sth but yeah like i said im just a small tiny person. how great can i stand out to point or change things? 0. then just tell you guys out there im powerful now. dun force me to do things i dun wish to do. now i know that things are said or done physically, they are not done or said spiritually at all, not a single bit. now i found myself useless. useless in trying to do many things. when can i have the chance to be able to change situations?

i really want to thank god for things he done for me.

but god, will you help me with this?

god I'm shouting for your help.

tags replied:

adeline: im still alive i know. difficult to relax

deena: yeah. i will now i feel so powerful. love you man buddy.

shamien: im trying to. yeah sure i will enjoy.

darylene: thanks for believing in me. but not everyone does. when can i change situation? none. thanks for the encouragement

sam: thanks for tagging!

2008-12-11T00:21:00.002+08:00

what happened today? basically one of the worst day of my life

i was calmed down when i went spca cause many funny things happened. we enjoyed there. i had joy and fun! i was like being 'molested' by a dog called milan.ohmygosh. and me and darylene was saying abt she and ben or wenzhen and ben. I HELPED LAONIANG! i was like calling her rubber duckie. actually she and ben quite compatible. OPPS! then she was like saying my dad is a duck then i was telling her : NO, MY MUM IS A PIG! ahaha, do you get the joke ppl? ok headed to amk hub, pei cousin go schl cause she wanna transfer. yeah all the best yeah?

ok went for council meeting. first thing i received was the fried rice. haha thanks wenzhen! thats the only great part of the whole council meeting. cant believe it but is true. im useless i know. dun have to treat me this way. i know the serious times i was joking. but the joking times i was serious. both no matter what i got scolded. believe it or not both juniors and seniors. what the.. got scolded by seniors nvm cause i RESPECT them. but juniors? A** H*** who is she to scold me? who give her the rights to do that? ask me to shut up? and not once, not twice, but everytime you see me? i shall say good luck to you man. not that im going to make you suffer. but you left a bad impression on me. ive reflected this to a few exco. i really hate this. got scolded the whole day? what the. and excos pls when you are choosing them, choose carefully, some has started to show true colours. i also reflected something on the council board blog. councillors if you guys got see this, really go that a look. it benefits everyone. i mean im just a small leader which have no say in the council, but i do hope ppl take in my advice.

ok whatever it takes i dun wan this to affect me 2moro. i have to work. i knew i would be fine cause going for caregroup. i love my caregroup cause they rocks! i finally found my real happiness. and they are my largest joy! i believe in yining now. what she say was true. i learn a lot from them. i love them man!

i wanna thank DEENA for the presents, WENZHEN for the lunch!

tags replied:
tansi: haha yeah thats the way man! okok sure
corin: ahahaha thanks
junling: yeah see you soon! go out ok!
ben: i do that often cause she is really great. haha i think she happy
xueli: ahaha you finally come! XUELIIIIII!
kelvin: thanks for visiting!
michelle: haha i love you too! it helps. it does. i know ppl are concerned of me. thanks so much.
wenzhen: you dun come my blog often to tag not like me lehh every time online i will tag! im always like that lahh thats one thing that i didnt learn from you. laoniang got time i tell you bahh because you are the one i respect most.
alvin: ohh haha thanks for tagging man!

2008-12-09T16:42:00.002+08:00

looks like today is not the day for me to jump with joy cause:

I'M SO SUPER NOT IN THE MOOD LAHH!

if i receive a bit more of agitation, i will explode! so anyone who tries to agitate me, good luck.

I really hate this

i vowed once that i will nv use a vulgarity.

but I'm soon going to break it.

but i dun want to.

I'm trying to calm down but it seems that it's not working.

God, why do i have to go through this?

2008-12-07T00:05:00.002+08:00

woke up early for usher interview. haha
confidence level is low lahh.
yupp but enjoyed it. though my chances are very slim i believe i will be helped!

today was a fantastic day. i could say. i was really learning a lot.
yea. lunched with same group of ppl. they were friendly.
after was supposed to meet sis but ya mum dun wan me to go.
end up went out with caregroup ppl. haha. then they started testing my memory for name.
here are the names: Alicia, Tansi, Zixuan, Baoer, Yining, Ruijun, Jocelyn
and right. rmb lehh! haha but i forgot someone.. WENZHEN!
haha went whatever acia to eat. haha
stm forgot liao lahh

and ya after went home
eat again. then ya watched tv.
but basically. i was trying to persuade mum to let me go for the heroes camp.
from 1 day to 2
then from no overnights to can.
then till can go!
yes mum i just want you to know i love you!

had this problem. financially.
but yeah i gonna thanks caregroup ppl.
of course forgetting the one who offered the greatest help. WENZHEN!
let me tell you she is such a great person.
i mean she can extend her help to so huge.
though now she knows whats the problem holding me back but.
WENZHEN! if you happened to see this i want you to know:
you had offered you greatest help. if i really cant go dun be sad! dun be sad because of me. you did really much help. i will try my best k!wenzhen i just want you to know im grateful for your greatest help. and too i want you to know : 老娘，小女儿爱你！i mean for who i m today, she is partially the one who shaped me. im like a lost sheep, and she is my saviour and Shepherd. and now she is? haha wenzhen thanks a million thousand. or even uncountable!

for those ppl who hate wenzhen, i really got no idea y. cause she is such a great person. she is really a great person isnt she?

im really touched by what all the caregroup members did. im really touched. and if it happens that i really cant go, im sincerely sorry. i wasted your great effort!

2008-12-05T23:52:00.003+08:00

yea man! today basically i did nth except sleeping. i didnt touch a single electical appliance at all. until 5.30pm! proness. i really wonder much how i did it man! fatastic. *CLAPS* woah miracle.

basically i just helped my mum to save the bills. for a day. haha but i was wasting my time after. sleeping was all i did lahh. watched let it shine. weisi called me lahh. and she is super.. lame i would say. she called me and ask me stupid things. -.- and she kept pestering me to give her present. haiz she very thick-skin lehh. ok went have dinner at kovan. ate crab. super enjoy myself. but everything is stuck on my braces. IRRITATED! and ya walk walk at heartland.

haha then i was looking around. for handphone strap. duhh cant find one i like. going vivo to get 2moro sis working nearby there. wonder blackie can go. haha. gonna buy sth for her cause gonna thank her sooooooooo much. she helped me so much. and she is keeping me suspense for.. the camp thing too. and she gave me moral support for the interview for ministry thingy. THANKS 老娘！though it seems small but ya. just tell you guys one weak point. im afraid going to interviews. no matter what kind of interview. a girl who seems brave end up scared of a little interview. cant believe it right? i hope can get in usher lahh. haha skali get into blackie's group. haha. gonna wake up early 2moro. going to sleep soon. see ya friends. and WELCOME BACK DEENA! miss you sooooo much lehh. finally bak lahh!

i look forward to 2moro. its so gonna be a day i stepped toward knowledge. when i learn so much abt you. and i know i will.

tags replied:
darylene: ahahaha! no more liao. sad ahh. haha can change bck lahh. but i find this nicer.
gabriel: cannot MOS cannot dao bi! later waimei no job! later i got no business partner!
minji: ahahaha. i dunno lahh! i miss you too! :)
sabrina: sure i will
adeline: MEOW!
deena: WELCOME BACK! I MISS YOU TOOOOOOOOOOOO! :D

2008-12-04T13:39:00.003+08:00

backed from chalet. i missing the times we had. but everything has to come to an end it is fated.

1dec: morning i woke up at 8 cause karen told me there is meeting. but in the end the meeting was for obs ppl lahh! KAREN! my sleep gone lehh! haha went sam hse later. just wanna go lorr. and her room is super.. pink. ok then we went amk to have our lunch. headed to meet other at ntuc. haha we were the first! ok then zixin and the rest came. haha we were super duper cute lahh.ok then we headed to pasir ris. took 88 there. haha we were like talking talking and talking. doing many stupid things too. haha in the end we reached! took a shuttle bus there. haha so funny lahh. went there and saw ms connie sitting there . i bet she waited for very long. in the end i turned back to join ethel at the back haha she seems to be fierce haha. went there and yeah went to the room! ok then we started bbq. haha delicious overburned food! haha im super duper hot. hha then ms connie and her bf played mafia with us. haha funny sam keep dying. then the both of them leave le we continued playing. i keep sleeping half way. in the end we went beach walking and ethel was really funny lahh. she wanted to disturb 2 ppl who were kissing. haha we walk past them twice haha. went back cahlet room and i was the first to sleep! i slept the longest too

2dec: woke up and realised that only me and karen were sleeping in the room haha. then went for an adventure. haha so funny. ok later we realised that www was opened so went there. had so much fun. but at the same time i had so many paiseh thing happening to me lahh. sian. always like that. around 1 plus we went the wave there to.. tan ourselves. haha i wanted to get darker. like wenzhen palm colour. it is super dark and nice. haha so cool tanning. im sure im going tanning again. ok went back cause karen had match later. i really had lots lots lots of fun there. i dun wanna leave at all. ok went back and had our bbq. the most pathetic bbq i ever had. i started the fire. WOOHOO! ok then i kept sweating cauyse it was really hot. then it started raining -.- sian lorr. went the rest came back. we went taking lots of photo. apologies my cable not working. cant see. we really had lots of fun photo taking. haha. then went walk walk . haha had the most pathetic supper. 2 loaf of bread. haha and the way we eat.. really pathetic. haha went back like yesterday. i was the first to sleep.

3dec: went back. i was really reluctant. i didnt wanna leave the fun that we had as a team. and i mean as a team. but everything will come to an end. ok bus back to amk. karen and bangla accompanied me to buy nyonya kueh. it super delicious. i will go back again for more. reached home at 1 slept till 5. watched tv. then had dinner. i miss it man. slept at 12++.

these few days i have been enjoying myself much. i gotta say. it was one of the best chalet i ever had. of course during these few day i fall sick. i can few heat inside my body. thats the reason y i wanted to go to the water so much. recovered but it came back the second night. haiz. third day not feeling as well but i recover after the sleep. and blackie promised me to take care of herself end up she was the one sick too. haiz we really very fated sia. sick together. lol ok lahh blackie recover soon, rest well, sleep well, drink more water.

and the tanning didnt really work for me. everyone's results could be seen. all i got was a red left arm. i wanna tanned more bronze. though im bronze in colour now. i so gonna tan again. this time round it must be successful. i also wanna improve on my swimming lahh. i cant swim well. sian. blackie ask me to go ice skating but broke le cant go. sorry. i really wanna go but. no money liao. sian. but i cant wait for 10. gonna have council meeting. yeah! and deena i want you to know i miss you sooooo much. yea come back soon.

here tags replied:
pam: hello :) haha thanks for tagging!
zhihui: yea got miss you. haha you soooo cute how can forget. you too hor. must miss me. all the best! :)
junling:hello haha YO! :D
michelle:yeah man. so sad it is cancelled. sian lorr. haiz. i know we will having fun and craziness.:)
ck: im fine. perfectly fine. haha everything fine here. nxt time have a gathering bahh!:)
deena: woohoo! yeah man. sure i wil ok! miss you soooooooooooooo much man. COME BACK SOON!
wenzhen: hey blackie! im backed le. haiz y you sick? anyway recover soon. and meet earlier for service again? haha like 11 haha see see walk walk chat chat. :) finally you are tagging me. haiz. so bad lahh!

2008-11-30T18:57:00.002+08:00

I CAN'T WAIT FOR 2MORO!!

NETBALL CHALET!

guess no one is as excited as i m lahh. haha cause i really appreciate the effort put in by karen lorh. i mean is like we so gonna have fun together. ok lets talk abt this very day!

woke up in the morning watched doremon. it is super cute. haha if you watched it often you would know that da xiong is a freaking pervertic kid! haha this is one of my childhood shows other than casper haha. i guess ppl at my age also the same bahh. ok msg karen then later found out that 2moro got meeting at 10. haiz no one tell me. or do i have to attend? anyway i still will go. if i doesnt have to attend then i shall wait for karen lorh. anyway all while when i was online i was play FACEBOOK with junling. we are 2 super duper cheaters. haha. ppl say junling pro but is both of us lorh. haha cause we thought of talking to each other. haha CHEATING BUDDY! haha great seeing junling real talent.. opps she sees this she so gonna kill me! ok weisi called me chat awhile haha she is cute lahh i mean really. and dun be shocked if you see weisi calling you. cause she is like calling every single person in her contact list! OHMYGOSH! she is totally nuts lahh!

i really cant wait for 2moro. cause it is better than rotting at home. anyway not gonna blog this few days so yeah. blog when im back. haha. and miss me! haha i so gonna miss everyone ESPECIALLY DEENA AND BLACKIE! blackie you better miss me horh cause i did the same when you were away. haha rmb you still owe me four times! BLACKIE!! and if you wonder who's blackie.. i shall not SAY! and hope deena is well in hongkong. miss my buddy so much man! hope that she had fun and everything is fine for her. TO EVERYONE AND ESPECIALLY BLACKIE AND DEENA: I SOOOOOOOOO GONNA MISS YOU! LOVES! :)

i will pray to god and hope everything will be fine!

2008-11-29T22:04:00.003+08:00

oh ya im replying tags when there are quite a few haha

CK: haha uncle teh. honoured. haha lol where got? huiyu got more. anyway uncle teh long time nv see you le lehh. how are you le?
Vic: haha sure i will take care. you too
Deena: haha nth to do lehh. so bored. so study is the best solution. looking at the computer for long time will die one lehh! so sian also. sure i will help you :) take care in hongkong. bon voyage. haha
Junling: haha i will have fun there man. haha. camp postpone le :( why dun we go out lahh? haha nv go out with you b4.
Kel: thank for tagging :)
Darylene: welcome back. rest well. haha share ur experience there with me bahh. hope u did enjoy and learn many things there.
Adeline: haha glad you are fine. rest well too. see you soon then

2008-11-29T21:33:00.003+08:00

today is the day i learn super lots of things.
be it good or bad yeah.
i now got to know more
my knowledge of the world and myself has just expanded.

im in YNED2. am i? haha saw my name on the list.
duhh they spelt it wrongly.
my name is

ELINE

ahh i will forgive cause just learn a lesson of forgiveness
i feel like going for the camp but ya.
the ans was no. haiz because of... >i will pray to god man!
i realised that we should forgive others unlimitedly like how we wanted others to. of course we first have to exercise forgiveness. we should forgive others regardless of frequencies of wrongs or regardless of extent of wrongs.

ok met wenzhen at 11. finally I'm not late!
ok went around see see walk walk.
duhh i have been a blur toad this few days.
YA I'M A BLUR TOAD!
ok we are like waiting for time to pass.
ok after everything ended. went for lunch.
i didn't eat much. in fact i didn't eat at all.
guess I'm more interested in usher than deco. haha
WENZHEN I WANNA JOIN USHER! haha
ok train-ed back home.
yeah.saw sth disgusting.
from this i learn that i should be like them.
polluting children mind.
yea they were constantly doing one bad habit i had.
saying unglamorous words = vulgarities
i will change this bad habit
I'm turning in myself to god and tell him the sins i did

third thing i learn which is the thing that is similar what happened in schl
being treated unfairly
yeah i was furious abt this matter.
yea but like what i mention
forgive and forget
i wanna change. this time is for real.
it is not for the best of others but for the best of me

i should start being like a girl.
not for the sake of anyone but myself
i shouldn't be so rough
I'm reminding myself. I'm a girl
i should act like one. i should be like one.
MATURE KID!

i feel in love with god on this day
I'm praying to god tonight

2008-11-27T14:13:00.004+08:00

I'm SUPER DUPER BORED!

duhh! im very sian.

im super bored at home.
like a bird without wings.
like a prisoner without freedom.
like a world without colours
like a universe without stars
like a planet without sun
like a human without legs
like a girl without emotions
like a sea without water
like a air without oxygen
like a day without nights
like a place without light
like a guitar without strings
like a music without sounds
like a me without you

haiz i too bored lahh. too free pls.
waiting for next few days.

2moro> going back schl
sat> going out
sun> going to gym maybe? pack chalet and camp stuffs
mon> got netball chalet
tue> same i dunno to go home or not?
wed> chalet? CAMP!
thurs> CAMP!
FRI> CAMP!

one whole week of activities.
one whole week not at home.
i so gonna miss my home and bed of course

i like being busy rather than having many free time
guess i will be off mugging. cause i seriously rotting
MUGGING A MATHS & E MATHS!
haiz i really got nth to do. so i shall start on sec 3 work

i changed my quote le
the PURPOSE, my PASSION, PATIENCE, PERSEVERANCE, be PREPARED(c)

2008-11-25T16:46:00.002+08:00

got a quiz to do, from darylene

Least 5 bad points about yourself:
5 is not enough. you can describe me in any bad points. but i will list 5. is easy.
-irritating
-when it is time to be serious, im not.
-easily aggitated
-too agressive
-insensitive/sacarstic at times
-there is more than that to describe me. i have too many bad bad points.

Least 5 good points about yourself:
too difficult lehh. i have no good good points. i will just throw 5 then
-dares to challenge my limits./brave
-i tell jokes
-high perseverance
-enthusiatics at all times
-brings enthu spirit to others easily
difficult to find 5. err i still think im not very good lahh

How do you think you influence people around you?
- by doing the right things? i dun think anyone will be influenced or inspired by me. frankly speaking

How old do you think you can live till?
- 50? thats all i wanted

Do you wanna have kids?
err however im am not at the age to think of it yet. maybe when im 30? i dun even think i will get married. pre marital sex is a no-no.

If you see an attractive lady/guy, you would..
A) ask for his/her number
B) stare at him/her
C) act normal and walk away
D) attract his/her attention

C

What will you do if someone close to you suddenly disappear?
-i will really look for that person no matter what. i will go evrywhere to look for them.

pass it on! hello peolple, if you see your name, do the quiz
-Wenzhen
-Deena
-Junling
-Samantha
-Benjamin

2008-11-25T15:48:00.003+08:00

it's the seventh day since i put my braces. cool
haha i sort of started getting used to it. the pain i mean.
yupp i cant chew. haiz thats mean porridge evryday.
i really hate it. but i just cant resist myself eating those yummy food.
sat recieved a small cake from wenzhen. haha thx so much i love it!
accompanied her to amk. haha funny things happen.
shall not talk abt it as promised. haha but she is just so funny.
ok pei-ed her to her tuition there. yupp haha went home after that
ate her cake. haha super delicious. she knew what i like. EATING!

sun, at first wanna go study with wenzhen but ya. she had to prepare for obs.
yeah take care ah. i dun wan to see you injured or sick haha.
i promise to not be sick and sleep early. haha
gonna miss them so much yea.

yesterday went spca. so many cute dogs there.
haha im in love with a dog!
adorable. her name is apple.
haha when jocelyn was calling apple i was like :" ETHEL?!"
she called the dog as if the name was. ethel! haha
ok vic and amanda went bck. i went to see the dogs.
haha adorable.
got scratched by a cat.
i was mischievous. haha i disturbed it.
it got irritated. haha
bcked home. slept. basically too lazy to blog.

today went bck schl.
went back for camp briefing.
yea still have to go back on28
haha look forward.
bck home.
im tired.

tags replied(apologies for late reply)
darylene: sorry. late reply. ehh after camp. haha still got 2 more weeks.
deena: haha not really lahh. mine is colourless.
shamien: hello. thxthxthx ;D tc too
junling: YO :D
kelvin: thx for tagging.
darylene: sure lahh. do it soon.
vic: you too
michelle: HELLO! haha :)
weisi: sure.
minji: HIhi! :)

i realised that reflecting on yourself is a good thing so i shall do it often.
AS A LEADER:
i was wrong back that was the past. all i now know is that i have to look forward and not look back at the past. i really want to improve on myself. yeah as a leader. i attended so many talks so many courses. i really need time to apply them. i will start from today. this very moment. i would first apply what i think is important.
have the PASSION, have the PATIENCE, have the PERSEVERANCE, be PREPARED ©

2008-11-19T16:59:00.003+08:00

yesterday, went schl at 7.
got sc orientation.
sigh so little came.
nvm.. waited for excos to finish their meeting.
and the day started off with a identity creating thingy.( sorry for my eng not very good)
then is really funny haha.
my group was called the fingers. haha i dunno y.
yea all while we were making aiwei. haha. MOH MOH!
ok later had more things. yea traffic jam that tim i was feeling real comfortable.
so yea apologies for my attitude.
ok lunched with jocelyn pamela and wani.
haha they very funny.

ok went back. yea they talk talk.
ok i was really bothered by something/someone.
was really unhappy cause it is irritating lahh.
and had the pizzahut game.
voice almost lost.
but pain. the fact is my group was last.
yea i was having headache so while we were having break, i slept.
woke up they play spiders. haha fun
i kept irritating those ppl.
almost got caught 5 times. haha
me pro lehh. haha joking lahh.
cause i played this game quite a number of times so i know the strategies!
in the end still got caught.
the old birds trick us lahh!
haha nvm played captains ball.
yeah fun. and again i saw sth bad lahh.
fact is we lost. nvm we will work hard.
after that dinner-ed with vic doreen and amanda.
went back home bath.
then watched tv and slept.
tired. and sorry wenzhen i didnt went online!

today woke up eat and yeah.
bath laio waited for sis headed to bukit batok.
put braces. ok. not really that pain as i thought.
or maybe the pain haven come yet.
haha ok now blogging lo.

tags replied
darylene: i also. haha i dun have to worry much liao
wenzhen: ya la ya la. everyone knows that you are nice lahh. haha finally you are tagging again! haha
ben: haha nvm dun rush. i agree to you to a certain extent. haha
zhen : ok sure:)
deena: haha updated on 17 lehh. still not good enough ahh? haha
kelvin: thanks for tagging. :)

2008-11-17T22:24:00.002+08:00

err i guess start from fri?

fri
had friendly with yck. fact we lost. ya dun feel like talking much abt it. not because we lost but ya.. i saw sth which i was quite disapointed abt. ok bused down to deyi with karen for ct. reached there and ppl were eating. haha so many buns. ok had the game later on. and yupp i have to apologised for the game not very well explained. and ya. apologies. it wasnt the best i could be. and sadly say, looks like no one enjoys it lahh. slept real early. this day meant to be a joyous one but truth is, it wasnt.

sat
went to meet wenzhen at somerset. sorry i was late. after that. around 3++ went chinatown to meet mummy. she wanted to buy some things end up. is I buy some things. haha ok went home. and watched tv slept.

sun
cleared up my mess. yupp and sweat much. went to collect my specs. and i have quite bad taste though. looks like nth looks nice on me. haiz. im lousy at fashion and style. so im a fashion idiot. nv ask me to do anything regarding that.

mon
slacked at home whole day. constantly was eating. ok at night sis came back, bak kwa! haha i ate.

ok lahh thats all. and too i found a friend back. thx yeah. and ya learn a lot from karen lahh. she looks like she a joker but she isnt. she a great captain to me. anyway thx. and too met a old netballer of deyi. haha she really funny. yupp thx to wenzhen, met many new friends.

one person must be grateful for things ppl done for you.

to have perseverance. to have passion. to have patience. to be prepared.

DWYSYWD

i had a new defination for it.

and yeah i hate to say this but ya.

i saw many hypocritea in my life.

i hate to say this it might be anyone.

but definately not you.

2moro gonna have sl orientation camp.

look forward to it.

tags replied

minji: lol you very funny lehh. haha bogay for a while only mahh. i still got the teeth with me. you want?

vic: haha i lazy lahh. and too thx for tagging.

michelle: haha fine lor. you not fierce lor haha heal very fast de lahh!

sister: haha i nv! ok lahh just did it only. i very irritating i know!

zhen: i dun bother abt those lamers. so immature. and haha ok lahh. see if i free then i go lor

darylene: sure man. but dun cry when you fall hor. you very free one mahh. LALALALAS!

junling: orh hor! you say minji! haha fine both are chicken.

chanhong: haha thx. nvm lahh. exams more important. all the best!

adeline: meow!

2008-11-13T23:22:00.002+08:00

was alone at home today.
slacked slacked.
ok went look for mummy.
came back eat dinner.
watched tv. busy busy.

HAIZ! i cant wait till 2moro.
got friendly match plus CT!
haha friendly im gonna work hard for it.
bangla power and chicken power!
haha fantastic force!
contact time like can play..
HAHA CANT WAIT FOR 2moro!

2008-11-12T23:04:00.002+08:00

today went pluck teeth again.
went there alone. haha
imagine a young innocent girl going a far land..
haha dun imagina cause im not the girl.
this time round more pain cause dentist didnt let me painkiller b4 that.
haiz no mood.
went home wanted to take a nap but was disturbed by dad and a aircon man.
STUPID DISTURBED MY SLEEP!
aircon man wash ur own aircon. i wanna sleep!

ok went sis room to disturb them cause im so bored
haha they were like irritated.
haha after sis went work watched tv and mum's back.

I LOVE YOU MUM!
my mother is fantastic!
she is not willing to pay my phone bill but she still did!
haha LOVE YOU MUM!

camebck and i went disturbing my mum
haha mum was like,: STOP DISTURBING ME!
haha but i still disturb haha so lame
ok accompanied sis to buy her dinner and now blogging.
yupp tags reply. didnt want myself to be able to tag so little only!

Deena: haha i know u will help me. haha thx so much
Wenzhen: yupp i did mention you're nice looking. haha thx true what. anyway i believe you wont become evil de lorr. i only heard of kind wenzhen nv heard of evil wenzhen. evil is use to use on me lahh!
Minji: you alright for? haha chicken, you are indeed good. work hard and show YCK the legendary deyi netball chicken power! WIN YEAH?
Darylene: haha i was joking abt your age. 4545454545! haha i bet you are talking to wz right? me an u sisters haha! i know u love my blog right?
michelle: yeah look alike friend! then u do both ahh. haha u r fierce to me!
junling: ya lahh! naughty chicken. oh which chicken you refering? me or minji?

2008-11-11T13:44:00.002+08:00

i feel so bored.
so i decided to do some quiz thingy.
darylene asked me to do...
i left the name there so that you can refers to it fast. haha

name 20 people. (no specific order)
1. WaiMei
2. Samantha
3. Deena
4. Corin
5. Adeline
6. Ethel
7. WenZhen
8. JoonTong
9. Karen
10. Donavon
11. Gabriel
12.Victoria
13.WeiSi
14. Christina
15. Benjamin
16. Darylene
17. Minji
18. WeiCai
19.Junling
20.Chris

1. how did you meet 14?[Christina]
In the super duper classroom called 206!

2. what would you do if you never met 1?[WaiMei]
i guess i wont be so crazy. but she is one of the person who help me the most so, i would be quite sad lahh

3. what if 9 and 20 date each other?[Karen,Chris]
OMG! i believe karen not so dumb.. opps joking. and they dunno each other lahh!

4. will 6 and 17 date?[Ethel,Minji]
haha imagine a chicken and a turtle! haha not possible cause they are both girls.

5.Describe 3.[Deena]
FANTASTIC FRIEND! haha very fierce. kind. caring. helpful. too much that i could describe her.

6. is 8 attractive?[JoonTong]
err. ok lahh. quite nice looking among the class boys. do you know y? cause there is no one nice looking in 206!

7. Describe 7.[Wenzhen]
FATASTIC MOTHER! very funny. blur at time. nice looking. helpful. kind. caaring. adorable. haha there is too much to describe her too.

8. Do you know any of 12's family members?[Victoria]
err. real life or fake? real life> no. fake > YES!

9. What if 18 confesses to you and say he/she likes you?[WeiCai]
i believe he isnt crazy. i hope he is fine. err. that wont happen lahh!

10. what language does 15 speak?[Benjamin]
POLITICS! haha no lahh eng and chi?

11. who is 9 going out with?[Karen]
HOW WOULD I KNOW?!

12. how old is 16?[Darylene]
45. opps i mean 15

13. when did you last speak to 13?[WeiSi]
yesterday during training.

14. Who is 2's favourite singer?[Samantha]
SHOW. she is just so crazy abt him.

15. will you ever date with 4?[Corin]
ehh. i not les and she is attached.

16. will you ever date with 1 ?[WaiMei]
NO MAN! she is a lady plus. if she is really a guy, i must be crazy to date her!

17. is 19 single?[Junling]
no.

18. what is 10's last name?[Donavon]
Tan. same as me

19. school of 3?[Deena]
DEYI SECONDARY SCHOOL

20. where does 6 lives?[Ethel]
ANG MO KIO

21. what is your favourite thing of 5?[Adeline]
CRAZYING? haha smile i guess

22. have you seen 11 naked?[Gabriel]
err. half naked yes. he likes to show off his bones to ppl. like during the chalet when he was playing soccer

Choose 5 people to do this test:
1.WenZhen
2.Victoria
3.Deena
4.Gabriel
5.Junling

2008-11-10T19:20:00.002+08:00

i feel so sad all of the sudden.
waimei and christina appeal.
now no one can help me le.
i have to depend on myself.
who can help me liao?! i so have to study during the holidays!
i hate this lahh.
how i wish i could have turn bck time................................................

wanna go k box to practise my singing. it is like getting worse le.
it can also be another place for me to vent my frustrations
very irritated. very sad. very disappointed. very lost

2008-11-10T16:26:00.002+08:00

today had training!
it was one of the most fun training ever!

at first got friendly with YCK!
wanted to see their captain cause went their investiture and the captain look so cool lehh!
karen is different, SHE IS CUTE!
but the match was cancelled! :(
then coach told us many things. true i think she right
we might not win in numbers but we have to win in our minds first
and i do certainly believe that even the match was carried on, we would definitely win by her inspiring speech! HAHA

ok now to the training part!
had this game like who catch the ball first who will win.
haha so funny rabbit kanna first then my bangla sis..
i forgotten who in between but i was with sam.
i saw her leg in front of me i knew i would lose if i dun dive for the ball..
i dive! GOT THE BALL!!!
haha i help ppl baochou! i just use the sunblock and hit her forehead!
haha then i was left with: karen, jasmine,weisi, minji
karen for sure win me.
jasmine leg so long!
weisi so hiong!
minji is better than me!
WHO TO CHOOSE!
but i chose minji, still lose :(
minji was the ultimate winner! so pro!
training ended really very early

later went mac to eat with sec2 netballers!
so funny lorr..
played murderer, haha so funny but we disturbed until ppl.
went schl with weisi..
EHH WEISI DUN SAD LE! EXCEL IN UR CLASS!
went home after that, slept!
now blogging!
do the test below

1. Who tagged you?
many lehh.. erm i choose: VICTORIA, DEENA, WENZHEN, DARYLENE, MICHELLE CHENG, BENJAMIN, ADELINE, XUELI, ETHEL, GABRIEL, WAIMEI, IRIS

2. Your relationship with him/her by order.
DEENA: my best buddy ever! CLOSE FRIENDS?
WENZHEN: simple, mother and daughter!
VICTORIA: my sister.. ELDER or YOUNGER?
WAIMEI:my classmate for 2years, at first can 4 de but she APPEAL!
ETHEL: my bangla sis!
IRIS: my 35 min younger de sis! my buddy too!
MICHELLE: my very good friend!
DARYLENE: my aunt! SL SENIOR
BENJAMIN: he was once my father but definitely not now!
ADELINE: my aunt? haha my SL senior
XUELI: my senior, my friend!
GABRIEL: very good friend! CLASSMATE!

3. Your impressions for them.(too much to write abt them lehh!)
DEENA: ehh.. fierce,but super duper kind to me! very caring! HELPFUL! too much to write! FANTASTIC FRIEND!
WENZHEN: ehh.. very blur. funny. super duper caring. helpful. shares JOY! FABULOUS MUM!
VICTORIA: CRAZY! haha funny too
WAIMEI: MORE CRAZY! up there got prob. ehh noisy like market aunty
ETHEL: humorous, FANTASTIC SIS! best ever!
IRIS: pretty, smart. VERY NICE GIRL!
MICHELLE: fierce, crazy. funny and active. approachable.
DARYLENE: caring, very good EXCO!
BENJAMIN: very nice, helpful, caring. he was once a FANTASTIC FATHER! now EXCELLENT PRESIDENT
ADELINE: funny, happy! good exco too!
XUELI: another crazy one. haha very kind friendly, funny
GABRIEL: very sporty, naughty. haha but at times he is kind and caring!
4. The most memorable thing he/she has done for you.

5. The most memorable thing that they said to you.
DEENA: "I WILL ALWAYS BE BY UR SIDE WHEN YOU NEED HELP!"
WENZHEN: "I CAN SPARE A LISTENING EAR" but there is too much she says that is memorable
OTHERS: hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha i lazy to type out! :P

6. If they become ur lover, u will..
OHMYTIAN! so many girls lehh. gab and ben? SIAO AHH! my taste bud nv spoil! joking!

7. If he/she becomes ur lover, wad they need to improve?
told you le. impossible.

8. If they become ur enemy, u will...Cry?
obviously! thats y i will treasure evry single friendship

9. Wad do u wanna tell them?
thanks for being by my side when i needed help. thx for bringing laughters to my life

10. Your overall impression of them.
VERY GOOD FRIENDS! short sweet simple

11. How do u think people around you feel about you?
irritating. naughty. too active. head got prob.

12. The part that u love urself most?
i guess my perseverance is strong? anyway i love myself for being who i am

13. The part u hate urself most?
too playful. sometimes very irritating. cannot bring smiles to others

14. The most ideal person u wanna be?
let me tell you man! wenzhen? cause she is really a person i respect most in my life. ben? he is just very inspiring.

15. For people that care about you, wad would u like to say
i will nv give up on our friendship. thx for those times!

16. Pass this quiz to 10 people.
1.Donavon
2.Junling
3.Samantha
4.WENZHEN
5.Benjamin
6.Darylene
7.Sean
8.DEENA
9.Waimei
10.ETHEL

2008-11-09T20:23:00.002+08:00

back from chalet!
anyway prepare for this post to be long..
want read continue, dun wan? up to you!
and class tee is with me! who haven take tell me!

5NOV
met Deena in the morning to collect class tee from Tiffany. when i was on the way, Deena reached and she was telling me that she look like a suspicious looking person with 2 suspicious looking article! haha i was imagining how she look like! so when i was looking for her, i look for someone who is suspicious with suspicious looking article standing outside the mrt! haha found her! then we headed to her hse, i did the SL thingy while she was disturbing me! like what she said, i was laughing all while! IDK why but i must be crazy lahh! later iris buddy called me and deena went to escort her! haha i was trying to act but deena is constantly laughing, IDK why? she must be nuts lahh! opps dun whack me pls! ok we were at deena hse talking and talking lahh.. finished the SLthingy, msg-ed mr soon and off i play maple! haha we were like talking abt our class ppl to iris and david. haha david did the piggy emotions thingy ahaha so funny, he seems to be like a kid! haha joking only! ok times up and we headed to city hall! boared the train after everyone arrived. and in the train i was constantly being a joker lahh. i did many stupid things and ppl were like laughing at us! haha i make everyone until so malu! but very fun lehh.. reached then checked in.. we were quite bored so went cycling! my butt hurts lahh! and we really had much fun.. gab was laughing at me for pressing the brakes to hard until i almost fall. im like going to bang the floor, but im a pro so nth will happen lahh! went back chalet and BBQ time was up! muahahahahaha eating time! hehe i stood aside to look at how the fire was set up. haha now i know le! then i was constantly playing with charcoal and was making the fire haha. and suddenly i dunno how, i became the one cooking instead of eating! haha but i was really happy cause ppl were enjoying eating my food. and of course the chicken wasnt cooked by me! i kept eating after everyone left/ went back room. and after that i was really bored so me deena and weicai went ehub to play and make a fool out of us! we were really very bored and was like walk here walked there then jesscca and joon tong went back room then i decided to look for 207 ppl so weicai and deena pi-ed me.. when we reached there.. they are like sleeping? haha so went to the beach.. but very tired liao went back room, wanted to sleep at 7am? but haiz cant lorr

6NOV
slept at 8++ woke up 8++ haha few min to sleep only lorr.. went cycling with some ppl. haha so much fun. cycled 2ppl de bike with joontong. finally saw 207 ppl! but michelle li wanted to change. then i took with xiaoyu. he quite stable at first but in the end i just felt very insecure and the bike a bit.... so i wanted to change back. joontong and i was like the one behind will cycle, the one in front will control the direction. so that we can rest! really had much fun. later i was really tired, went backed chatted with waimei and ppl while the rest go WWW. haha i suddenly headache, very xinku. so slept awhile, and waimei and ppl were making fun of me if im not wrong. cause i was blur blur that time keep on got ppl pat me. haha i was woke up because liping was on the phone.. i got them to buy lunch for me cause head was really splitting lahh! ate damn fast, a few min the burger gone! haha. talkee and ppl came back. haha then had BBQ again! so much fun, this time round the fire was set by me and christina. was really hot and yupp.. tired of course. ate and went lan with some ppl cause was really bored. we were really having fun inside the lan. haha and we went back at 6 like that. the road was only having some taxi and nth. so nice. haha i slept at the starbucks there and they woke me up to head back the chalet.

7NOV
came back and deena weicai wanted to leave.. so sian lorr. so i slept and told mich that we will be leaving at 9. and gues what i woke up at 10++. opps everyone waiting for me like that! haha so left the place that we had much fun. so sad lahh, days of fun just gone. ok ate and bus-ed back home, we were chatting and playing on the bus. after that reached AMK separated ways with ppl. reached home, asnd slept till 7 for dinner. after dinner sleep again till 11 woke up and used com awhile. slept at 1 and next day woke up at 12. i have been sleeping like a pig.!

8NOV
woke up mum told us to clean up the hse. i chose to clean window! had much fun! haha so tired watched tv and went out to buy things at chinatown. bought new wallet! finally! haha so went backed home to have dinner. slept early haha was really tired.

9NOV
TODAY! went market with mum early in the morning! hah ate many things, like a pig. i dunno why i got lots of link with pig nowadays.. WHY HUR? backed home and SLEEP AGAIN! woke up to have lunch. had lunched le SLEPT AGAIN! till dinner time, and watch simpson a while then now blog!

these are really fun things happenning and of course there is some unpleasant things that happened! was really unhappy abt it lahh! someone during chalet wanted to break me and A's friendship. what the... B told A many past time things that made me almost quarrel with A. pls lahh just shut up lorr. down there act kelian. YOU THINK I WILL CARE ARH! DARE TO BETRAY ME DUN DARE TO OWN UP! shit you lahh. and pls i always believe this saying,' A strong friendship would not sink by any storms' pls u call this friend? betraying others, lying to others, BACKSTAB OTHERS? and let me tell you, i have to thank you for letting me see ur true colours, backstabber!

i could not believe that that this is always happening to me

i always has friendship problem.

and now i feel so lost

why is this happening to me?

i really hate it so much.

it really spoils my mood.

i just cant stop making myself not thinking of it

each come right after each.

or even come in many. i hate this i really hate it

pls help me! i shouting for ur help

i hate backstabbers, liar and bretrayers.

they are the one that caused my life so miserable.

i hate you.

A strong friendship will not sink by any storms

2008-11-05T09:04:00.003+08:00

im so happy! :D

later got chalet! haha going tostay there till fri..

so wont be onlining or blogging lahh!

but basically, i just wanna talk abt yesterday.

yesterday was the young leaders day? haha sort of bahh

went to ngee ann poly for some talk..

minister od defence went too but he left early..

we have some speaker who are really wonderful!

ppl like nick martin dylan, who are real busy ppl came too..

but martin the guy who went to our schl and he is the executive director of halogen.

nick has no limbs and arms.. poor thing

but he isnt sad or angry abt it lahh
dylan is the 8th richest guys in UK

here are some pics i took.. it is quite blur

nick

dylan

2008-11-02T20:17:00.003+08:00

ohh today is sunday!
accompanied mum to market to buy things then followed her to serangoon to see doctor.
then when we are done, i saw ppl rushing out to see sth.
and i smell sth too.
so i kaypo go see.
little did i know that what i saw was fire burning!
the fire was quite small at first then it just became really huge.
i didnt wanna take pics like hte others cause i just feel so bad for the owner
too bad i wasnt trained to save fire, if not i would go and help.
i just stood there, being useless, watched the fire and just hope that it would just be gone!
fire engine and everything came in real fast.
such a high storey it is for sure take up lots of time for them to go up.

time passed the fire got bigger, the smoke change into real black colour.
then i saw water coming out, i knew it was the firemen; the heroes
i walked away, cause i just feel so bad, i would just hope that no one will die, everything is ok.
partially the reason y i didnt wanna take pics cause what if there is someone who is really trapped, or even die?
you are just taking how that person die. so heartless.
but i did have the thinking of taking it because we seldom get to see this
and if i take, i would be able to allow others to see the consequences of not taking precautions

i watched the news, i saw the owner crying.
it was just her being careless. all because of this, she lost her hse
i felt really very bad. ppl out there really be careful of your hse.
check on the electrical appliances.
dun over circuit.
i was really glad that no one died or injured themselves.

other than this, grandma came over.
felt nth to do so i shall blog, let others see the tragedy.

2008-11-01T21:36:00.003+08:00

hi ppl!
ok just let me start from the freaking shocks day, fri

FRI, had training early in the morning. training was at 8.30
and i reached school at 7.45. -.- waited like a idiot
met evryone at foyer, and they are like :" show me you mouth! i wanna see you bogay!"
-.- < this is my reaction. they dun believe i wont talk later and its true, when will i be quiet?! training wasnt tiring as PT, it wasnt really pt.
had fun in fact, sabo-ing rabbit!
haha im like when she the 'monkey' known as defender, i will purposely make her.
me and bangla sis also damn funny lahh! we both had fun saboing others.
we keep meeting as defenders and attackers.! SO FUN WITH BANGLA SIS MAN!

training ended, junling and michelle plus us went eating
suddenly i then realised that minji and weisi gone!
haha
went to foodcourt cause i just wanna eat sth from there.
i was worried for the streaming results all while.
then wenzhen called. this is what she told me, not exactly
"hey eline, i saw the streaming results le. you went in E12" later i ask her which class
"308" i was totally shocked lahh i wasnt somehow thinking if its reliable cause 308? you sure?
karen called me again,'hey eline i saw the streaming results le! you got in E12"
i ask her which class she replied 308! i asked her again if 308 is the best class, she said yes.
OHMYGOSH! she told me sam and corin went 307, weisi and minji went 306
the moment i hear this i was totally disappointed lah!
finally i thought i can be with netballers, but ended but not even one with me sia!

went bck schl, i was really really scared, went there see. it was totally true.
but look down the list of my class.. 308,308,308,308
just total luck, ppl eyes got stamp. IM JUST LUCKY!
right after me got so many 308, this bought the smile i had bck
same class as DEENA, WAIMEI, TIFFANY, CHRISTINA, SABRINA, PRATIWI, and many more
but i knew that 206 is separated physically but joined 'chemically'

ok went out to thomson then back home
had dinner and mum asked me go cut hair!
HAHA of course agreed la!
the person like cut a lot lorr.
now not very short but still short.
cut-ed fringe
back home and SLEEP!

sat, today, woke up and accompanied sis to clinic to buy medicine
wenzhen ask me to go out but i was tired so rejected her
anw my mum is at home, so i wanna accompany her instead.
stayed at home the whole day.
just had dinner and now blogging lor.

and all the best to those who wanna appeal for the course.
wish you all the best lahh
bye ppl, good nites and sweet dreams!

2008-10-29T17:43:00.003+08:00

went bukit batok to pluck teeth.
fear flew through my mind at first.
heart was pumping real fast when i was in the room.
i didnt dare to open my eyes(for the first time when i kanna injection)
i felt so numb + it is like swollen like that!
after that, i was waiting for him to say he's done.
later i sat there and he got me to rinse my mouth.
little did i know he was done!
HAHA CLAPS TO ME FOR BEING BRAVE!
*clapping* joking!
he gave me the teeth that he pluck out for memory.
dun wanna take pic cause... i guess when you see it you will find it disgusting.

went back home. with myself biting on to the stupid cotton wool thingy.
when i stepped out, it seems like everyone is starring at me!
TOTALLY PAISEH!
later board the train.. 2 ppl keep starring at me!
AHH!!!!!!
i look like some retarded person!
later reach AMK, i got this feeling will see someone i know with the retarded look!
and it's TRUE!
i come up of the escalator and i heard wenzhen's voice.
the first thing i do is to look for her and turn to the other direction.
but sadly, i saw kurin!
ans she is like tlking to me. CONSTANTLY trying not to laugh
but she did.
she give me that 'i look like a retard' look.

i cant imagine im going to schl on FRI!
being a bogay person!
NETBALLERS SO GONNA LAUGH MAN!
receiving the results soon. ALL THE BEST TO EVRYONE!

super duper ELINE

2008-10-28T18:53:00.002+08:00

SO SIAN THE WHOLE DAY!
some important dates i have to rmb:
29 OCT- dental appointment/SL meeting(i cant make it)
31 OCT- netball training/STREAMING RESULTS
4 NOV- SL thingy
5-7 NOV- SUPER DUPER CLASS 206 CHALET
14 NOV- SL CONTACT TIME MEETING

i have to thank those ppl that actually say i rock lahh!
YOU GUYS ROCK TOO!!!!!

once again, I LOVE 206'08!
206, if you happen to see this, see the previous post!

2008-10-27T19:07:00.003+08:00

this post is for 206 ppl lahh.
happen to see this GREAT!
this is my words for you.. SPREAD MSG AROUND!
i was wrong lahh in the first place for wanting to go SEc3 so much..
COS IM MISSING YOU GUYS NOW!
PLS GO CLASS CHALET LAHH!!!!
I LOVE 206'08!

CHERIE: though our time together is very short. we seldom talk to each other often. but just would like you to know.we are always classmates. thanks for being someone who had entered my life b4!

ICHINORROV: we seldom talk to each other, we are only a year classmates but i do appreciate things you do for me. you are a great classmate indeed! thanks so much!

TIFFANY: you are a great friend i know. you are the only person i felt likw taking care of. you allow me to have the elder sister feeling. also, when i need someone to help me with art, you are alays there for me. thank you soooooooooooooooo much. i cant imagine that you are leaving for australia next year. dun forget to alwyas keep in touch. i also have to thank you for helping me eith my studies. i will always rmb the very last day of school when we played together lahh! we are really like sisters at that time. to my good friend: THANK YOU! :D

WAIMEI: WHYME! haha joking lahh.. good friend,you are always there when i need help. you are so good to me lorr. i will rmb fate want us to meet as friends. our class position is so close. we will for sure be fated as classmates nxt year again. i believe and hope that it would really happen. i will always rmb the time we had together in china, when you were helping me. you help me to make new friends! to this good friend: THANK YOU :D

DEENA: you always help me so much. your printer always work for me. you would not want any rewards when you've help me. you let me go your hse and play. though we have misunderstanding sometimes, but you alwyas allow me to be your friend again. you help me through work and will alwyas be there when i have prob. you know me well and always give me KITKAT when im down. i will never ever forget you as a friend. and you make me have the feeling of looking forward to ur hse man! to this very good friend: THANK YOU SO MUCH:D ALL THE BEST IN YOUR YEAR AHEAD!

YERNEE: haha stop making me wanting to do split! haha anw just want to tell you. you are really a good classmate i know. you aalways help me in things sometimes and wont always complain tasks that you help me. THANK YOU!ALL THE BEST!

HEHUI: though we seldom talk but you are a great classmate! THANK YOU!

MICHELLE.L: haha i always regard you as a sister. you treat me like a sis too. thanks for being someone great :D

CHRISTINA: haha your laughter and smiles bring up my day! haha you are also another one who really encourage me eveytime. you and i will remain as good friends.. ALWAYS AS GOOD FRIENDS! :D THANKYOU! ALL THE BEST IN YOUR FUTURE LIFE!

SABRINA: you are so adorable with your words.. thanks so much lahh. i have to say you really impact my life greatly! :D thank you for being my friend!

JIEXIN: you are so cute(though at times you are pervertic). and you are a good friend and a GREAT CLASSMATE too. all the best in your year ahead. THANKYOU!:D

LIPING: haha all the best in the year ahead. rmb to study hard. i believe you will be able to achieve good results bahh. THANK YOU!:D

WEISI: BIGMOUTHGIRL! haha i was joking. anyway, you are a great friend(monster too). you are the only person in class who has the same CCA as me "NETBALL:D". you bring smiles to my life. you are always able to create a laughing environment. your actions(not person) are cute which is ugly but aborable lahh. i hope you would have fun in your future class. also i also wish to be able to be your class mate and friends forever. THANK YOU FOR BEING A GREAT FRIEND!:D

MICHELLE.W: CRAZYGIRL! another pervertic friend i have. haha pls dun do anything to me man! i guess you are influenced by weisi or the other way round, your actions(not person) are cute. i do hope you would be always smiling and having fun. we are always classmates lahh! THANK YOU AND I DO TREASURE UR FRIENDSHIP!:D

NISHANTI: haha whenever i look at you, i happened to think of myself calling out for you and i was ouyt of pitch. anyways all the best in your future lahh! THANK YOU!:)

CINDY: haha cindy, i still rmb the times we had during sec 1 orientation when we shared the same 'bed'. you are always a great friend and classmate too. i wish you all the best in you future and year ahead! THANK YOU(:

SHARON: just wanna tell you. we seldom talk but i always treated you as a friend. all the best to you! THANK YOU:)

JESSCCA: haha though we shared bad times together b4, but after all we are still friends. i wish you all the best in your year ahead: THANK YOU!:)

PRATIWI: hello. anyway. a year of classmates mean nth, but it does mean that we are fated tobe classmates. i wish you all the best in your year ahead.! THANK YOU :)

BRYAN: anyways i just tell you lahh. we are always friends and do rmb to work hard. THANK YOU

CANDRA: the sight of you will reminds me of the 'huh' sound. ok anyway, nxt year sec 3 liao so dun be so blur anymore k? THANK YOU :)

CHRIS: HELIANG! haha your chi name quite nice but i've got no idea y you dislike it. haha. i hope i was wrong. ok. you are really a good friend and you are really willing to teach me guitar(though im a slow learner). i wish you all the best! THANK YOU FOR BEING MY GOOD FRIEND! :)

WEICAI: stop suaning me le lahh! haha anw just wanna tell you that you are one of the gentlemen in class. you are willing to help the girls. YOU ARE NOT CHILDISH. but i guess over mature. hehe. anyway, i hope you would be fine wherever you are. DO RMB TO SMILE OFTEN! :)

JEREMIAH: i have been treating you like younger bro(i guess you seems not so mature?) i will always rmb that i once had you as a friend! ALL THE BEST AND THANK YOU! :)

WEIJUN: OLDMAN! haha i guess you are young bahh. anyway i do hope that you will be fine in the future. do rmb to smile and LOOK YOUNG! THANK YOU :)

KELVIN: haha i will rmb you playign the guitar. quite nice lahh. KRB, all the best ahead. DO SMILE OFTEN! THANK YOU:)

BINGHUI: PENGUIN. rmb to smile ok. i guess i dun disturb you thats y you gave me respect. anyway.have to thank you lahh. DO RMB TO SMILE!:) THANK YOU:)

MINGSHENG: PATIENT. you are so cute lorr(actions lahh) you are just so funny. haha without you in the class, i guess it will be super boring. SMILE! :) ALL THE BEST!

GABRIEL: though you disturbed me often, but i still have to say. we are always good friend and will be good friends too. i wish you all the best. do look for me if you need help k? haha THANK YOU FOR YOUR FRIENDSHIP!:)

KENNETH: you are quite a nice person. we do shared common goals i guess. haha anyway. dun worry i believe you will be able to succeed and reach your goals eventually! ALL THE BEST AND THANK YOU!:)

HASYIM: ok our days as classmates has ended but we as friends will never end. all the best to you. THANK YOU! :)

SUXIN: SUSHI! haha you look like a monk i think becos of ur hairstyle! hha. anyway i was joking. thank for being my classmate lahh! ALL THE BEST! :)

JOHNY: haha we seldom talk but i always regard you as a friend. all the best to you and THANK YOU:)

JOONTONG: heyy! i have to thank you for all the help you had offered me. you always help me though i could seldom help you bahh. thanks for allowing me to go your hse to play com games. TOLD YOU, YOU WILL NV FAIL MATHS. pls stop suaning me liao lahh!!! stop going around telling ppl what happened when i first went your hse!!!! STOP LAUGHING AT MY A2 art like OTHERS!!!! will rmb you as a vampire. haha i hope to play that stupid spider game again. all the best to you.. have faith. and just rmb that we will always be firnds!THANK YOU FOR BEING A GREAT FRIEND THERE! ALL THE BEST TO YOU! :D

MINGKAI: HAHA! CHAIM SEE TONG! haha politics and politics. history and geog so good lehh. haha. all the best to you.. THANKYOU! :)

XIAOYU: haha dun sad le. i believe you will be able to excel in your studies.. do look for me if you need help! THANKYOU FISH! :D

EUGENE: hi eugene. our days as classmates has really ended but i do hope you would be able to smile everyday! THANK YOU! :)

ALAN: yongren, do have confident with yourself. work hard for your future. ALL THE BEST AND THANK YOU! :D

2008-10-27T18:51:00.002+08:00

HEYY PPL! haha come blogging again..
went out with vic, wenzhen and wenzhen's bro..

EARLY in the morning (not very early 11++)
i met up with vic and wanted to give wenzhen a surprise since she told us.. 12.30.
at 12 when we were at her hse downstairs.. she called..
TIME FOR ME TO ACT!
i had to fake fake not with vic...
then she was like asking me where i am..
SHE TOLD ME SHE WAS AT AMK LE!!!
and the prob is.. she told me and vic 12.30
and she is there at 12..
nvm headed there to meet her..
she called again..
she was asking if i mind having his bro with us..
replied her dun mind.. told her to call vic(when she is beside me..)
so she really called..
nvm.. reached AMK and saw her.. but she didnt see us..
i wanted to hide and disiao her..
haha.. so funny lehh..
we were deciding what to eat..
ate foodcourt food lohh..

went watching movie..
HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3
quite nice lahh..
though im not really those type who catch this..
but it let me gain interest in these kind of show le..
after movie as usual when you are with wenzhen..
TOILET VISIT!
haha.. later we were like laughing and laughing(for no reason)
FYI, i was laughing all while the moment we see her.. in fact during th movie too!

went home after that..
reached home then eat liao..
of course now blogging!
chatting with wenzhen now..
seriously talk with those 309 seniors is really a good thing..
when i talk with them.. i tend to forget all problems at the moment..
ppl who studies does only mean they talk books stuffs.
they do tell jokes..

i wanna thank them for accompanying me the day..
they managed to make me forget problems i had for a moment..
rather than me at home thinking of it..
thanks so much!

2008-10-26T19:54:00.004+08:00

lets start from tue i guess

TUE: had the SLPI workshop thingy..was really an enjoyable one. like what most ppl would say didnt waste my time(though felt like sleeping sometimes). lucky didnt went to roller blading, as i heard... those equipment stinks! but they say i waste the chance of not seeing handsome dudes (i m not those type of girls who really see hunks, CRAZY abt them. though i might look sometimes XP)

WED: also had the SLPI. but wasnt in the happy mode like tue, mood affected when we had committee meeting. i think that darylene is really a good EXCO cause she really cares abt her committee members. i guess b4 the day ended she was the only person who knows what actually happened. good choice that the seniors have made. learn like super duper lots of things over the two days. martin was really a joker(as in he tells jokes). i got to know this guy b4 this workshop cause me michelle and sean went for some thingy b4 and met him. after the whole thing, went to locker to clear it. im like many many years nv touch it like that. haha went to 3rd floor to look for wenzhen (as i promised her to tell her sth). she accompanied me to all the way till AMK hub. met a lady on the way. she needs help and we offered her the help. separated ways when wenzhen bus came.

THUR: morning got this sharing session with some potential SL. hope most of them would be interested. but it seems like some of them wasnt putting on the smile. went around asking ppl who had attended it. haha good news man! some said they were interested! but of course there is sure to be someone not so interested lohh.
went bck to class sat with tiffany. realised that when i sit with her i look like a big sister. haha maybe becos of size? haha nth much actuakly happened. i look at others cry when the day almost end. i guess they would really be loving 206'08. shockingly(to me), i didnt cry was it becos i am cold-blooded or was it becos i felt nth for me to cry? but the real reason is, i wanted to put on the strong side of me b4 the class really separate. and i really got to say this: i really love the class though i had many bad memories over there. but the good thing is that i got to learn many thing in this class. i really got to know what am i in this class. later stayed in schl for PTM. haha waiting for 3.30 to really start working. haha weicai, weisi and i stayed bck to help. i wanted to contribute sth more b4 i leave the classroom. in between had some unpleasant thing i would say. i cried again this time again in front of the person who i guess think that im strong. ben told me a lot of things. it was all inside my head and will be inside my head forever. went bck to class to eat. realised that weicai and weisi didnt mention a single thing. guess they are trying to make me not think of those things lahh.

FRI: after 2 days and nights of crying. it was rather tired the third day. woke up late for netball training and i had to rush my way to schl. training was normal. got to know my strength and weaknesses. hah went to have lunch with netballers. haha went to trick ppl lahh! haha both minji and ethel got trick. but every thing has its price to pay. ethel the bangla went to slean those thingy( i shall not mention) on me and it like SUPER DUPER DISGUSTING! i had to warn ppl out there . NEVER TRY TO DISTURB ETHEL! SHE'S MAD!(hope she wont she this) went bck home after that. then wenzhen try to persuade me to go her church. i was really determined to not go her church. but i felt that she is like trying to ask me to go for so many times. so decided to go. at the same time, deena ask me to go chris church with her. im like, one side is someone who had tried to get me to go out for so many times and the other is someone who can rarely go out. difficult decision hur? in the end i wanted to choose to accompany deena cause i didnt want to make wenzhen to have difficult times. but the final decision was to go both!

SAT: like i promised.. i woke up to go for their churches. went to somerset to meet wenzhen and the rest. was a bit late. but i wished i wasnt there lahh cause is like. **** dont feel like talking abt those thingy bahh. but to those ppl who tried to counsel me: thanks soooo much. but i really had to say, if counselling works for me, i would long ago went for it liao. went have lunch after those really good performance. appetitide was abit affected, mood too. but i decided to do the other way. to munch down those food. make myself uncomfortable till i was thinking of it and nth else. went to chris' church. haha after that simply went home. have dinner and i was really tired. but i dunno y. in the room alone. i cried again. the thing that had left in my heart was up again. can anyone tell me how to solve this. i hate my friend. but how is it possible? you would say you hate your enemy. i dont wish to be her enemy. but y is she always trying to do small actions to hurt me?

SUN: morning was like munching time. after having breakfast, went around looking for things to munch. read some books and went to take a nap, to really take a rest after so many days. woke up and eat again. fish was like super duper delicious! haha after dinner now come blogging! realised that didnt touch com for very long and nv watch hotshot for super duper long! going to watch it ltr.

i am really tired of these

i really feel like banging my head on the wall

so i could have a memor loss

i know it is a stupid way to solve things

but i nv know when i nv try

this is the only place i can vent my frustration on

y are you always trying to hurt me by ur actions?

it hurt me more than it hurt you.

it takes me to have the courage to apologise.

but you should too.

i wanna take the innitiative but i dun have the courage.

it takes 1 person to have the courage,

but 2 ppl to be willing.

are you willing to be my friend?

or are you going to start evrything again

i really hate the feeling of being backstabbed.

but y are you continuously doing this?

it really makes me to hate you

it really..

bring me to a place of silence.

let me be the one creating sound!

let me go to a beach or a green field!

let me vent my frustration out..

let me scream off my lungs.

if possible take me away from this place...............

2008-10-19T20:58:00.002+08:00

realised that some ppl have just nth to do..
pls lahh gab is not a fool lorr..
snw hope that person wont be going around using ppl name to spam..
dun anw how scold ppl..
these ppl really have nth to do..

sigh.. today worked up early..
just for job..
then some ppl(IDK WHO) slept until really late
haha.. this person must be..
it was a hot and sunny day and i was sweating damn alot..
went buy drinks so many times..

after that went home despite the heavy rain..
was really super duper wet when i reached home..
then talk to VIC..
she is like super duper cute lahh..
haha

i thought i would be able to gain back everything

but i was wrong

in fact i lost everything

i must be strong

i have to be.

i wanna fight for victory

super duper eline

2008-10-18T23:33:00.002+08:00

yesterday was tired.. after a day of walks
leg was super suan.. tired too..
went around 28 blocks of tampines..
AND IT IS REALLY TIRING!!!
went to eat BK after work..
haiz.. me and joon tong was like hungry ghost..
step inside and EAT EAT EAT!
reached home, bath then immediately sleep!!!

today woke up went to orchard for x-ray
for my braces thingy..
and maybe cant go class chalet..
cause i guess i will be putting braces at that period..
pls dun! i want my final class chalet with CLASS 206'08!
went have some nice food..(dunno what it is called in ENG)
headed to my hse bus stop and waited for joon tong..
he ahh.. another da shao ye..
took train from paya lebar..

reached tampines.. headed to our different venues..
so sian doing alone..
plus i was scared that ppl come make me..
then i was like trying to meet joontong..
cause i was really scared being alone..
haha then we meet at 6++ after we were separated for 3hrs!!
we were like so funny lorr..

7 ended work.. headed AMK..
wanna to eat suki sushi..
haha cause it is cheap.. plus just got salary!
eat nice food then went home..
saw chris in the interchange..
then went home..
haha
reached home watch tV, bath.. now blogging..
going to sleep soon i guess?

and to those ppl who are complaining no jobs..
SORRY NO MORE VACANCY!
and to those ppl who complain that their parents give them too little allowance..
GO FOR WORK YOURSELF!
it is not easy earning money..
tiring ok.. appreciate what you have..

2moro got work at 12..
sian.. must wake up early..
sigh.. now then i know that got job de life is so systematic..
wake up job sleep. wake up job sleep..
seriously learn a lot from this experience..

i hope i could turn back time.

and change the current situation.

i hate it.

i really hate it.

i have lost many things.

many.

2008-10-17T00:00:00.002+08:00

CA2 and SA2 combined results are out..
to me i am quite neutral..
somehow expected it already
those like chi, eng art..
expected to get some noob results
however, DIDNT FAIL A SINGLE SUBJ!
haiz..
it is all over and i can do nth abt it anw.
now the one that is bothering me is..
CHOOSING OF COURSE!

it wasnt as easy as what i thought..
realised that this is the point that i should realised what i wanted..
and i have this small prob..
HELP ME TO SOLVE IT!

i just dunno y..
i suddenly realised that i love all subj..
it is a good thing but..
i cannot separate myself up..
i interested in bio pure geog and POA!
can anyone tell me how to solve it?
haiz.. i think i would go for pure geog..
cause it has triple humans.. double sci.. and amaths..
thx to david anw :D

actually i love studying(studious hur?)
but just dislike lessons..
i love the purpose of studying..
it is to learn things beyond those in the textbooks..
learning more than what you have expected..
haha.. IDW i suddenly change to like that..
i am those kind that gonna extinct! :)
joking lahh.. i believe many ppl out there are like me

and also, talking to those ppl in 309 is really fun! haha..
they are like so funny and cute lorr.
so happy got to know them..

i realised that i was wrong that history would repeat itself but it didnt.

i was really fortunate to know some friends who really cares abt me.

but just i was thinking..

they are really important friends in my life..

not many of them but there is still some friends out there..

they are really friends who had occupied my whole heart

and not just appearance

but to other friends..

it does not take to person to be close as good friends

but it takes many of them to have many good friends..

just like to tell friends out there..

I LOVE MY FRIENDS A LOT!

2008-10-13T18:05:00.003+08:00

woah! watched hot shot th whole day!
haha it is so nice..i bet lots of ppl are watching..
i like those cool moves they have..
during match or not..
love wuzhun cool moves and actions the most..
they tempted me to play bball..

anw, i still got 2 more days..
to enjoy food!
soon the class would be in peace..
FYI, those who havent look at my previous post, look now! :D

coming bck ltr for more actions in HOT SHOT! :)

2008-10-12T22:04:00.002+08:00

LOOK AT THESE QUESTIONS AND REPLIES!

some questions i asked myself and replied it..
haha try finding your name..
tell me if i missed out..
rmb! they are just jokes!:D

1.Who should i look for if i hope my voice would be monotone?
ans: Adeline, i guess..
(she is quite montonous sometimes..)
2.If i wishes to be a police, who should be my transport?
ans: Amanda
(ma~da~chia)
3.If i would like to know how a father should be like, best person to look for is?
ans: Benjamin
(he has 14 children.. no i meant 13)
4.I always wanted to be special when i am sleeping,she should learn them from?
ans: master Candace Ng
(err.. ask her the best!)
5.who should I learn from to be a professi0nal short circuit maker?
ans: Chris
(he short circuit joon tong hse thrice!)
6. Surprises are fun, but who should i be like to reply that i am grateful?
ans: Christina
(the situation during the surprise we gave her)
7.I wanna be a candy monster like?
ans: Corin
(i am afraid of seeing her, cause she love CANDIES!)
8.What will i be like when i grow up?
ans: Darylene
(she is currently an aunty i guess?)
9.i hope to see how dinosaur looks like..
ans: Deena
(DEENA -SAUR)
10.i wish no to be as blur as?
ans: Ethel
(banglas are blur somtimes.. but she is totally blur)
11.how will i look like when i am a man?
ans: Hasyim or Mr yeo
(they are tall, dark and handsome)~cross fingers~
12.Who is 35min younger than me?
ans: Iris
(she is born on 8pm while me 7.25pm)
13.i wish to be tall like?
ans: Jasmine
(she is really tall)
14.i wanna to be a duck rice seller.. like?
ans: Jeremiah!
(jia~li~mai~ya)
15. i want to break my leg cause ~ always say lameto me..
ans: Joon tong
(kept saying lame to me..)
16.how i wish i was a bull but who i should look for?
ans: Karen
(she is a bull to me)
17. i wanna be a burger king!
ans: Kenneth
(he is like eating burger everyday..)
18."STOP IT I TELL YOU HOR!"
ans: Michelle cheng
(i miss those words)
19.CHICKEN is me favourite food..
ans: Minji
(she look like a hen)
20.what am i when i am a customer of the hospital?
ans: Ming sheng
(PATIENT)
21.If i am a rabbit, who will be my best friend?
ans: Regina
(rabbit yeo)
22.i hope to be an actress, like?
ans: Samantha
(she looks like one of the actress)
23.who is a member of 20*07?
ans: Victoria
(cause she is a member)
24. Why must it be me?
ans: Wai Mei
(why me is found in fish phone)
25.i wish to break the world record of the biggest mouth set by?
ans: Weisi
(cause her mouth is 8cm long)
26.i am a vegetable,smell, needle..
ans: Wenzhen
(look at her name)
27.i am a fish =?
ans: Xiao yu
(IDK)
28.i wish to be a snow white..
ans : Xueli
(cause she is really white.. but she is for sure not sure white!)
29. i wish to scream as good as?
ans: Junling
(her expression during her receiving of present)
30.care bear rox!
ans: Mr lee
(IDK)

2008-10-12T21:28:00.007+08:00

went escape yesterday..

was really having fun!
waited for sab cause last min she say can go..

haha

fish also went..

went to escape played many things i didnt dare to play few years bck..

so now.. let the pics do the talking!

up high!

coming down..

down-ed!

SMILE!

up high

halfway there..

SPLASH!

AT THE BEND

talk!

Talk!

SMILE:)!

HAPPY! :D

peep!

going to bend

turning

relaxing

wiping..

going to bend

done!

some pics we took at the wet and wild..

met suhui there..

haha so qiao..

2008-10-10T21:57:00.001+08:00

for your info friends out there..
if you got lobang for jobs tell me..
haha thx!

and can anyone tell me wat will you be doing during the holidays except playing?

2008-10-10T21:22:00.003+08:00

WAHAHAHAHAHAHA! exams are over..
PARTIES ARE HERE!
SWITCHING TO PLAY MODE!

yesterday went joon tong hse and watch rule one..
haha not scary but is the stupid thingy suddenly come out..
then chris.. screamed like some..
irritating plus adding to our fear.. ear got really irritated..
then i guess he wasnt listening during science lessons
normally for 2 head plugs..
ppl would put at the bottom..
this guy.. he put at the top and obt bottom one..
got the whole hse short circuit..
went have dinner at RK hse..
haha not bad la the food..
talk to joon tong and went home at 10++

today went tiffany hse..
but went surprising christina first..
haha she was really shocked to see us..
she pat herself and turn bck to her hse and lock the door..
???????
that was my expression..
headed to tiff hse..
play monopoly..
haha i keep sabo-ing wai mei!
MUHAHAHAHA!

ltr went swimming..
haha so fun lorr.
but my stamina not very good and wasnt good at swimming..
i am always at the bck..
then went have lunch and swim again..
ltr decided to go sauna..
went there to have fun..
and normally is the fattest person sweat a lot..
in the end the skinniest one(definitely not me) sweat like tap water..
haha then went bck swimming again..
try-ed to practice for handstand..
could do it once in a while.. YEA!
then went rolling in the pool..
HIGHEST ROUNDS: 4
same as weisi..
then went bathing and bck home..

2moro going to escape with some classmates..
going to have fun again!
awaits for 2moro!

=)

happy advanced birthday! TIFFANY!

cake!

2 xtra ppl spoiled the pic

smilez! finally without weisi

oh! she came in again!

2008-10-08T18:58:00.000+08:00

2moro last paper le =)

all the best to everyone..
celebrating session is coming le!
ok signing off liaos! BBYE!

2008-10-04T17:07:00.002+08:00

exam period this few days.. 3 down..

i realised that mistakes made will always leave a scar on others..
it really does happen..
how i wish i could gain trust bck to others..
but things are happening over and over again..
realised that mistakes made cannot be forgotten..
thats how we learn..

i have to promise sth..
I WILL NEVER TAKE ART!
these few days have been choinging for art..
and finally it is over..
hate those preparatory work..
slept at 2++ on Thursday..
and the nxt day got chi!
for those ppl who cursed me:
I WILL PROVE YOU WRONG!

Chinese was okay.. except for i think i wrote too short..
art was terrible..
paint like a pri schl kid work..
it is so.....*no comments to be made!*

ok ppl..
all the best for your exams..
hope you will be able pass with flying colours..

2008-09-27T01:11:00.003+08:00

27th September 2008!

sis birthday! haha hope she like wat cin and ah girl prepared..
hehe i was holding on the birthday cake..

haha cin and ah girl went wake her up..
she screamed.. like how junling did..
DOES all September birthday ppl scream?
haha their screams are so familiar..

had English exam yesterday..
quite okay hope can pass.
cause this is the time that determines my fate in the nxt 2 years!
haha hope everyone can do well..

ate steamboat..
haha.. we were like playing with the stove after that..
lala dunno y didnt eat much..

days passed and hope everyone is enjoying!
exams had reached so STUDY HARD!

just like to wish sis a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2008-09-25T21:27:00.007+08:00

Hello people! =)
Thought that I could stop blogging for a while.
But i couldn't stop it.

before i start, like to wish Junling..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D
saw her expression when she got the present from sam..
she screamed.. oh my!
shocked.. haha hope she was happy..
haha that time she att me..
and now.. managed to return her that time the 'bashes'!

in the morning, i had 2.4 run..
haha didnt take quite a few time and today took it..
i was quite happy with my timing..
i thought i was much lousier than it..
haha but i managed to look at the positive side..
DID IT!

recess didnt really had dance practice..
cause most of them were gone..
dunno to where..
i panic cause i thought of getting the dance well..
during the dance ltr on..
quite happy though just reached my expectation..
but we really did quite well!
WELL DONE! Excellent!

went tiff hse after schl..
her parents come fetch..
something paiseh happened to me..
my bag is quite bulky..
got stuck somehow....
then the strap got stuck at the seat
so malu :S

took pics for my art cause currently there is no progress :X
had the pic of swimming pool and tennis court..
then read the storybook while weisi they all were away..

muscle aches everywhere now..
maybe cause i ran at the pace i couldnt take it..
lol.. but i now got to know where i should starting training..
abs and stamina..
the 2 of my weaker ones..

ok alright i think i would stop here..
everyone rmb to study hard..
all the best to your exam! :D

read the book again.. this time round learn more..

sometimes, i think that y bother abt how others think of me..

in fact the choice is mine.

i dont have to respond the way everyone else does..

or the way people think i should..

im those time of reactive ppl (opp of proactive)

i explode easily..

like coke

while those proactive ppl..

like water!

The proactive and the reactive

-those who takes responsibility for their lives and those who blame

-those who make it happen and those who get happened to

i should think of this myself

"I am the force. I am the captain of my life. I can choose my attitude.

I'm responsible for my own happiness or unhappiness.

i am in the driver's seat of my destiny,

not just a passenger"

adapted from Sean Covey"The 7 Habits of Highly Effective Teenagers"

"People are just about as happy as they make up their mind to be"

-Abraham Lincoln US President

somehow i make a U-turn of life..

but i dun know how long i would stay..

hope forever moving towards positive..

that what's everyone should treat life..

face UPs and DOWNs!

it is bound to have in our lives..

posting more of this for everyone and myself..

so i would be able to learn more..

I HAVE TO CHANGE!

FUN & LAUGHTER,

PEACE & JOY.

2008-09-24T17:31:00.006+08:00

called weisi early in the morning..
talk to her abt the incident..
she told me not to worry cause i was not at total fault(BUT I THINK I AM)

did e learning..
almost done left a few which i cant open...
history wrote quite a few..
went around helping other :D glad.

playing jigsaw too with vic..
building our teamwork
it is getting better each time..
haha got someone with good teamwork..
yesterday i win like siao
today it's her turn!
nvm cause we are looking for quality, not quantity

kept thinking abt the whole incident..
but it is really my fault at first..
in fact it is most of my faults..
but when there is quarrel..
BOTH parties are at faults..
gt damn upset by that stupid tag..

TO SOMEBODY:
like i said.. it was my fault at first..
i didnt say it wasnt my fault at all..
for damn sake..

i love these photos!
it is uniquely 206'08..
but somehow other class copy our fun shot.. JOKING!
haha
only boy in the center surrounded by girls..
look so happy

i know it is my fault.. most too

but * is at fault too..

but y am i the only one who got blame?

it is always like that..

anything goes wrong ..

the leader must be the one to hold all blames..

cause we lead the wrong way..

i tried my best to change..

i know i am hot tempered..

i really really did try my best to change..

but who is giving my the chance?

you? me? or them?

i know i will nv get the chance and that is for sure..

How? ! pls help me..

i am sinking deeper..

deeper...

......................................................................................

i really wanna be a effective leader..

i did tried my best..

like what others said..

"if you think you can, you can"

now i am just lack of sth..

which is.. DISCIPLINE!

i really got more to say..

but i just could think at once..

i wanna go that green green field to rest..

really take a deep breathe and rest..

this is the only place for me to vent my frustration..

cause i cant vent it one others..

i have to control!

change for the better i am trying

persevere

have to believe in myself before i make others believe in me..

how i wish i could have smile like you guys but i cant..

a new day ahead..

one more chance for me to change..

but can i??

smile to myself and everyone
try my best to do it..

~~help~~

ATTITUDE is the little thing that makes a

BIG DIFFERENCE..

2008-09-23T15:42:00.007+08:00

in the morning i thought that i would be enjoying this day...
however, the ans seems not to be totally reliable..

recess had dance practice..
somehow successful cause everyone got the idea right in one way or the other..
but the big day haven arrive.. THURSDAY!

dun feel like going into the matter..
but i could go no where to really vent my frustration..
sorry blog.. dun feel hurt..
it was my fault at first.. for not talking nicely to them..
and i mean THEM!
but cant * stop going around and saying things of your own point..
complaining backstabbing..
is that what you can do? is that what you do to gain friends from helping you?
now i have become the villain.. that eyesore of everyone's eyes..
i had lose SOME friends(i know for sure)
dun use excuses to cover what wat you wanna say..
if you wanna say that i am a bad student leader..
just say it..
but i am trying to change my attitude problem.. but are you?
my attitude prob is extreme.. but yours too..
i put much effort to change.. but do you see it?

i broke down.. really this time..
and quite bad..
this is really my first time breaking down..
falling.. and fell quite badly..
but, i managed to truly see who is my true friend and who's not..
most of them were ppl i neglected much..
but they really do care for me..
and of course not forgetting those who will always be by my side..
thx..

i have many question to ask myself
am i fit to be a student leader? or even a leader?
am i someone who is an idiot of ppl's view?
am i some kind of bitch?
am i a useless person?

i think i should completely stop backstabbing..
or even talking bad abt ppl..
i should go back to the old me..
when i am no crap or joke..
when i just kept quiet when i have a problem..
or even just sit at one corner to enjoy my happiness...
to always so that what's known "cool face"
i think i should.. i am trying me best to be like that..
no jokes, no crap, no laughter, not outgoing
but enjoying happiness inside myself.. not showing it out..
and i knew i would
also, going to a green green land is a good idea

ATTITUDE is the little thing that makes a big

DIFFERENCE

2008-09-22T18:24:00.002+08:00

hey i quite love the lesson today..

maths was really normal except for that 3c
this is the solution for 3c:
20x2=40
40-19=21

The reason i take 20 multiply by 2 so that you get the centre 2 values(total)
reason i minus 19 not 23 as you take 41 one out, 19 will be the centre number.
therefore, 40-19=21.. the other value is 21.

hope ppl understand..

sci had test..
it was somehow successful..
not very confident that will score well..

however, a leader must be confident to lead the followers

i wanna protest for my oral!!!
wah damn suay kanna the most strict teacher among all..
mdm nopipah, mrs ramesh so lenient!
1-13 WANNA PROTEST!!!
went have that grammar quiz in com lab
ah 50 questions.. see like siao!

had hist test..
haha from close book test until open book!
so happy..
no need to fail it

went have lunch after schl..
then meet for sl..
lol i thought important meeting..
eh actually quite important la

haha had dance practice..
keep practising until close to perfect..
practice makes perfect!
and ben voon

YOU SO GONNA TO BE DEAD!!

SHOW MY CLASSMATES MY PIC!

I AM COMING FOR YOU!

you baddie ex laoba..
i am sure i will be with my mum le!!!
wahaha

life is interesting
if you make it..
i have to be a effective leader
lead with dedication and integrity

2008-09-21T20:23:00.004+08:00

very long nv update? hahas

days passed.. too many things happen in my life..
most of them occurs around misunderstanding while others.. common ones

i thought that initiative is what a leader should have..

but sometimes.. LEADERS met many different kinds of problems

TRUST RESPECT HARMONY
MISUNDERSTANDING APPRECIATION

Sometimes we as leaders the least to serve not for credits...
but i just hope that ppl would trust me for what i do..
would respect me for what i did
to follow me with happiness
to find ways to solve problems and not complaining...
would even give me a little appreciation..
looks like things dun work this ways..

as i release stones in my bag..
i received more in return..
i realised problems are more than solutions..
and i got to stand up as they come in..

ONCE A LEADER FALLS, EVERYONE DO!
DON'T GIVE UP!

some ppl might not agree with it.. but i do..
just to let you know..
i am strong in appearance.. but weak in heart and mind.

ATTITUDE IS THE LITTLE THING THAT MAKES A BIG DIFFERENCE!

i read the book " The 7 Habits of a Highly Effective Teenager"
i realised it is time for me to change..
there is much thing i can improve one..
and i have to..
i cant be centering anything..
and now studies is more important..

EOY is just round the corner..
for sec 1s: all the best in promoting to sec 2.. work hard
for sec 2s: all the best for your streaming exams.. hope you can get in to the course you want.. DUN GIVE UP!
for sec 3s: all the best for EOY.. hope you guys can promote to sec 4.. O level is just the year after!
for sec 4s: o level is coming! work hard you would excel.. ALL THE BEST!

apologised if my blog is going to be dead for a while..
cause have to concentrate on studies..
ALL THE BEST TO EVERYONE!

2008-09-15T20:55:00.006+08:00

haha 32th posts le..

the other time i had blog and it was like the past?!
haha so lame.. get to topic

as i said
I REALLY LOVE MATHS! (i know i am a weirdo)
today's lesson was equally engaging..
haha i dunno why no matter how boring maths lesson could be..
i will always listen attentively..
but y cant i do this for other lessons??!

i dun like the feeling of being used be others..
i will nv allow anyone to have the chance to do so..
and today actually quarrel with that guy who made me kanna ps..
but luckily tiffany was pei-ing me..
so good siah..
then when jt wanna move back i told him this:
if you wanna move.. you move for life!(sounds familiar)
dun come bck just because i am able to help you with the test..
but somehow.. i felt guilty..
cause when he sitting beside me..
he is always helping me..
sorry! ^.^
haha! then when check with mrs yusoff the sci ans..
i got full marks for first 3 pages!(i think so?)
sorry if i offended anyone

after recess lesson normal.. got eng test..

after school stayed bck-ed
haiz..
hated ppl who like to.. hiaz.. not talking abt it..
then went hub to get sth with deena..
laughing the whole way..
haha horny stuffs came out..
then we were like saying..
WHY CAN"T GUYS BE THE ONES HAVING MENSES?!
dun say eeeeee.. if you are mature enough..

came bck home and slept..
super tired..
woke up and choing-ed ipw proj
haiz last min work again.. i hate myself for that..

2008-09-14T17:55:00.002+08:00

YO! everyone

haha i actually dun really like Sundays cause it is the day i prepare for the following tday..
i would be rushing for everything..
that is not wat a leader should do though..
morning woke up ate breakfast

i was doing sci the whole time..
but now then finish.. i quite slow siah
but my com was part of the problem..
sian..
going popular later to get some stuffs..
and i think it's raining soon..
pls dun..

i scared that my team members nv do the sci..
HOW??!
but i guess they will do..
cause 2moro is the deadline..
i believe..
cause trust is wat a leader should have to the members..
it is basic respect for them..

yesterday the crane project is almost done..
except one more to go!
all the best..
wanna thanks king charming daddy and mummy for msg-ing me
thx man!
their encouragement for me make me realised that i do make a difference in their life!
i am really glad..
those bad things hiding inside my heart is slowly being released out..
but i dun think it can be so soon..

counting down for EOY!
all the best to everyone..

thx for opening a gate for me to see more of the world..
i am glad that the encouragement did help me in some ways..
i am really happy..
now i am trying my best to be a effective teenager..
and also effective leader too
leadership skills is wat i am looking for..
being an effective person is also wat i am achieving!
all the best to everyone including myself