i cant believed that in the end i still..
oh well.. its better to let out than keeping it to myself..
felt great after smsing meow meow in the morning..
at least after pearlyn msg i forgotten abt it for a while

then was lying on the bed and my mama came in and talk to me..
haha then we started saying lame jokes..
MY GOSH MY MUM SO OLD LE STILL CHILDISH.
no wonder im like that.
i was saying i want a bag
she keep saying i wanna bet.
i mention the word bag she will replied bet..
LAME LUH!
but i love my mama..
though at time i felt she dun understand me or she's unreasonable..
at least she still love me a lot..
try to be the santa claus in my life..
I LOVE MY MAMA!!

i woke up at 1230.. woke up had my lunch..
fantastic i love the food..
then did some chores.
practically spent my day facing a screen
i then realised..
TODAY IS FINALLY MY FIRST DAY OF HOLIDAY.
so kelian!!! ive been busy with lots of stuffs..
then i started thinking abt that particular thingy
so i switched on com..
i was talking to shaun just now..
he was like talking to me cheering me up..
JUST LIKE WHEN HE WAS IN YLC.
then i started saying lame jokes to help him distress..
haha
was talking to bestfriend too.
but my tone was rude..
sorry:(
man felt so bad..
but im feeling damn bad too..

well.. off doing qt soon..
hope wont cry again..
i hate it.

yeap clc1 has ended..
love the whole course..
learned a lot from other district ppl..
ITS ALL SO DIFFERENT.
make friends most importantly...

usher ws today..
what i felt was quite fun though..
again.. make friends yeah..
talk to mj and ppl..
knew and learn a lot from them too..

i just wanna say that..
my time and freedom has been taken away by you..
though time dun exist since council stuffs come
and freedom dun exist since i was 15..
nvm..
but you took away my only source of joy and my rights..
WHAT ELSE AM I LEFT WITH?
nothing frankly..
i hope u know how important this is to me..
what i am doing today is what you have been trying to tell me..
IM SORRY THIS IS WHAT I LEARN FROM YOU.
you took away my everything..
i will and i mean i WILL go against..
UNTIL the most fair decision is made
im a joyless soul with nth left..
except God's encouragement..
trying to put on a smile

thank God that i didnt cry infront of someone just now..
but i feel like crying

you are the reason for the teardrop on my guitar.

yeah. changed blogskin.. ADDED MUSICS most importantly..
dun sound so dead though half of the time my blog is dead

haha went for CLC1 today..
today enjoyed it..
most importantly i was reminded of sth..
yeah THANK GOD
i totally enjoyed the poison bottle game..
LEARNT A LOT

2moro going to school for another council meet
great opportunity to prove myself wrong
gonna settle orientation stuffs..
now left my part.. stressed :X
after that going deena hse for sec 3 bonding bbq..
YEAH! LOOK FORWARD (:

prompted of two verses..

Matthew 5:43-48 (The Message)
43-47"You're familiar with the old written law, 'Love your friend,' and its unwritten companion, 'Hate your enemy.' I'm challenging that. I'm telling you to love your enemies. Let them bring out the best in you, not the worst. When someone gives you a hard time, respond with the energies of prayer, for then you are working out of your true selves, your God-created selves. This is what God does. He gives his best—the sun to warm and the rain to nourish—to everyone, regardless: the good and bad, the nice and nasty. If all you do is love the lovable, do you expect a bonus? Anybody can do that. If you simply say hello to those who greet you, do you expect a medal? Any run-of-the-mill sinner does that.
48"In a word, what I'm saying is, Grow up. You're kingdom subjects. Now live like it. Live out your God-created identity. Live generously and graciously toward others, the way God lives toward you."

John 10:11-18 (New International Version)
11"I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep. 12The hired hand is not the shepherd who owns the sheep. So when he sees the wolf coming, he abandons the sheep and runs away. Then the wolf attacks the flock and scatters it. 13The man runs away because he is a hired hand and cares nothing for the sheep.
14"I am the good shepherd; I know my sheep and my sheep know me— 15just as the Father knows me and I know the Father—and I lay down my life for the sheep. 16I have other sheep that are not of this sheep pen. I must bring them also. They too will listen to my voice, and there shall be one flock and one shepherd. 17The reason my Father loves me is that I lay down my life—only to take it up again. 18No one takes it from me, but I lay it down of my own accord. I have authority to lay it down and authority to take it up again. This command I received from my Father."


amen. GOD IS awesome! hallelujah

woah. really excited for CLC1 later
really look forward in learning new stuffs:)

yesterday is the past.
2moro is the future.
today is the present.

i should treat everyday that im living as a gift.
humans tend to bring yesterday to today.
and today to 2moro.
we live life without JOY
sad to say im those that always do that
i let my past happenings affect what i am doing to do.
like i told myself..
since it is a rotten apple, it shall be a rotten apple.
but i didnt know whats better for the rotten apple.
i knew it could do sth else.

my feelings on issues are affecting what im thinking now.
but one thing i knew..
i have an issue
LOL

i want to get rid of my mess now.
in no mood in doing anything on it.
INCLUSIVE OF HOMEWORK
out to change this?
i need somewhere to keep the mess

feel like getting a ipod
put music in and blast them..
listen to songs make me feel better sometimes..

best medication for headache and frustration
bang your head on the wall
and i'll stay forever unconscious of them.
running away from reality

hey guys here to really post more on OBS.
i really had much fun there with those guys..
im in DAGAMA haha.
thank God with Minling and michelle.
first two days is like really.. BORING! haha
i meant.. we felt..
haha but enjoyed it as learning days..
third day was kayaking..
with michelle and sean..
as you know.. once again.. light.....
opps i dint say anything
went back to school on forth day for COE..
DANG
fifth day was the sort it out day..
all our unhappiness was left in pulau ubin
really.
heard that there will be a 2 bravo outing.
hope to be able to join you..
:D

alrights. done for that,
eh.. time was rather like passing by..
i didnt knew what i had really done for the past few weeks.
dang nv study for a few weeks le.
SHIT i gonna be a nerd

its been a while since i really had the time to sit down..
die.. i feel that i need God to shift me back to the right direction..
felt so lost.
300plus more days to o level.
trust me it will come and past soon.
DANG!
PLACE GOD IN FIRST PRIORITY
WORRY FOR WHAT?
but i cant stop it.

oh well. i really need some time to sit down and relax!
anyway SORRY BELLE. I MISS iT. hope ya understand.
man. i miss so many dumb ppl..
the chicken.. WAIMEI.
the pig.. BELLE
the laughing bag.. CHRISTINA
the smile-ful girl.. MINLING
the other chicken.. MINJI
the bangla.. ETHEL
the rabbit.. REGINA
the yoshi owner.. JOONTONG

if your name doesnt appear up there..
its either i forgot
or i just simply saw you or sees you every single week
oh boy these ppl played a part in my life some sort or the other..
left sth inspiring in me.
put sth memorable in my mind that i cant forgot
there is even random names..

2moro got class chalet..
but joining them on 2nd day..
haha really look forward to it..
though my whole group of friends didnt go..
i pray they will at least go for a while?
please! just join..
i feel so sad
i wanna go cause i wanna see those friends that hasnt been meeting..
wanna know and catch up with them
oh boy..

byee off i go do qt..
leaving the photos below..

yeah been back from OBS for quite a few days..
but everyday were bust
TODAY COE.
nice i always like the m&d performance

2moro alumni camp..
look forward to it because we are gonna be exposed to new things..
EH dun get the wrong msg..
i meant sth else!!!

post photos and experience in OBS sometimes..

LASTLY..

I LOVE MY BESTFRIEND!!!!! :)

i didnt knew that it would happen to me.
so shocking that my emotions were affected
even my spiritual life
i even showed the weak side of me..
DANG
i hate that feeling
troubled by everything
it has somewhat became a numb feeling

but thank God
ppl around has been motivating me to do well.
no matter how cui my life is now
but i still choose to praise and worship Jesus
i knew he would have the solution to all my probs
God is more than enough for me now.

O LORD, i pray to you to bring down all these
i trust in you!!
i trust in you!!
i really hate them.
i hate all these that had happened to me
but i will still trust in you
i will love you to the end of my life

when the things around me or my whole life come crashing down.
the only person i could trust is God